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    “Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.”

    Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart.

    Shane Hollander
    Age: 27
    Height: 177.8cm
    Weight: 88.5Kg
    Temp: 36.6
    BP: 118/75

    -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo.

     

    -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)

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    29 May 2026

  2. Rec *

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    Ilya ignored the request from the NHL twice. The first time they asked through his agent, the second time the director of marketing called his personal number directly. He never got along with the league as a player, and he certainly didn't need to make them happy now.

    The next attempt to reach him was harder to ignore. A phone call from an unknown number. A voicemail that made his blood run cold.

    "Hi Ilya. This is Rose Landry. We've never met, but Shane speaks so highly of you. I think the NHL has been trying to get in touch. Shane said you probably wouldn't talk to them. But...think about it, ok? I know it would mean a lot to him."

    The final request crumbled his resolve. The caller ID blinked "Jane," and Ilya stared at it.

    ***
    Canon divergence, Shane and Ilya are estranged for a decade. Shane finally reaches out to Ilya when he retires.

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    29 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Brautiful storytelling.
    Being almost 40, both retired from hockey, with a lot of baggage, reconnecting foter 10 years. Had a brief thing 5 years ago.

     

    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov never hooked up at the CCM commercial.

    Now it's 2017. Yuna Hollander is concerned that Shane doesn't have many friends, so she signs him up on a buddy network website.
    Shane gets paired with someone else looking for a 'buddy', not knowing that it's his on-ice rival, Ilya Rozanov.

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    29 May 2026

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    'Jane' gets added to the Centaurs WAG groupchat, after Wyatt notices Roz wearing a ring...

     

    pov Wyatt

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    26 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has always wanted to open his own bar. When the opportunity presents itself, he manages to make his dreams come true, and opens up his own place. He meets fussy food writer Shane Hollander one night at the bar as Shane is assigned to do a write-up on the new hot spot. What starts out as a quippy, slightly antagonistic relationship, turns into a sweet romance...

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    26 May 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 8

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    He knew this was wrong. This was a bad play on the ice that was going to hurt someone. And he just didn't know how to stop when he needed this to work. He needed Rose to work. He was bending low to reply to her when his eye caught on the tall unmistakable frame of Cliff Marleau dancing with a brunette near the bar. Marleau—Ilya's linemate, his friend, nearly as joined at the hip with him as Shane and Hayden. If Cliff Marleau was here it followed that—

    • Book: After a moment of brief, terrifying eye contact, Shane flees the club. Jealous, horrified, embarrassed, he ends up having to pull over on the side of the road to cry his eyes out. So sad.
    • Show: After a way worse moment of devastated eye contact while Ilya sucks a blonde's ear lobe, a visibly uncomfortable Shane ends up in bed with Rose while a split screen suggests that he is thinking about Ilya jorking it in the shower. Or Ilya could be jorking it thinking about Shane having sex with Rose. Really, why choose?
    • This fic: Imma make it worse. Forget Rose's gentle "Was it better?" hand-holding. We're not leaving this club yet.

    Centaurs Writing Room Weekly Writing Prompt #4: Inspired by a Song

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    26 May 2026

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    Finally have time and inspiration to write a AU where Irina escapes her husband, and is able to take Ilya with her and raise him on her own with the support of the women of the neighbourhood like Yuna Hollander.

    'There has never been a version of Shane that never loved Ilya.'

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    26 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya and Shane met at age 9. Ilya's mom is alive and has become friends with Juna. Shane's autism is more visible in this story.
    Sweet story.

  9. Public Bookmark 7

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    Hayden is six years old when his mother leaves him at the children’s home Saint Michael and he meets his best friend, Cliff.

    Hayden is twenty-six when he walks into a bar in Boston and meets Cliff again.

    Once they were friends. Now they are strangers.
    Most things changed, some are still the same. Hayden just shouldn't stay to figure out which are which.

    or: After almost a decade of silence, christian musician Hayden Pike meets his childhood best friend in a bar and rethinks his life choices.

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    25 May 2026

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    "Ilya knows, logistically, that fucking his roomate is a terrible idea. Right up there with poking a bear, or calling his brother just to say hello, or sticking a fork in an electrical socket.

    The first time was an accident.

    The second and third (and fourth) times were all, also, most definitely accidents."

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    25 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    And when Ilya instead dragged his hand up Hollander’s thigh, the other boy immediately opened his legs wider to give him a better angle.

    And, well, there’s a reason Ilya leads their hockey team every year in scoring goals. When he sees an opening, he takes it.

    hehehehe, smooth! Love it!!

  11. Rec *

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    25 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Seriously good writing. Intense, raw...

    Ch6 is to die for. My body was buzzing the whole time. And not only because of smut.

    Love it!!

  12. Public Bookmark *

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    What happens if Scott Hunter never pulls Kip Grady onto the ice after winning the Cup in 2017?

    No kiss.
    No courage.
    No Shane and Ilya.

    One moment can change everything.

    This is the story of what happens instead.

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    24 May 2026

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    One voice note. Two minutes and thirty-eight seconds. 1:32 in the morning.
    In Russian, which Shane doesn't speak.

    Companion piece to Not In That Way

    It is set between chapter 5 et chapter 6 of Not In That Way so it won't make sense without reading it

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    24 May 2026

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    There’s no humor in Shane’s voice. It’s cold, hard, determined. “When we meet them on the ice next season, I want to fucking destroy them.”

    After a moment, he feels Ilya nod thoughtfully behind him.

    “Is good plan. Let’s fucking destroy them.”

    The Montreal Voyageurs won't stop slinging mud at Shane in the press, so Shane and Ilya decide to get revenge the best way they know how.

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    24 May 2026

  15. Rec *

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    21 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Shane’s transfer to Ottawa is everything but smooth. Centaurs are not nice.
    Shane’s career was always full of responsibilities to everyone end everything. Carrying whole team on his shoulders being used only for hockey and not appreciated as a person. His autism. Montreal was horrendous at the end. Losing his sense of self and self worth, excusing the abuse.
    Would there ever be good time for Shane in this team? Hard to say. Should or can he forgive the centaurs?

    So much of this story made me nauseous.
    Realistic portrait of Shane if HR story wasn’t a hae.
    The whole second chapter is just pain.

    Author thinking of possible sequel or continuation. I subscribed.
    Great writing and comments are full of interesting opinions.

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    “I’m late,” Ilya finally says.
    “Oh! Yeah, of course, I’m sorry. It was good to see you, man.”
    Man. It’s patronizing.
    “You too.”
    Shane searches his face for a second, eyebrows creased slightly, face an open book just like before. Ilya tries to push past him, tries to see how fast he can forget that this encounter ever happened, but Shane stops him at the last second.
    “Can I give you my number?” he asks, already digging in his pocket for his phone. “We should catch up.”
    Ilya doesn’t want it. He really doesn’t want it. Shane is being polite. He’s being a good boy. He’s saying exactly the type of things you’re supposed to say when you run into someone you haven’t seen in years.

    Nine years after Ilya decided to end things with Shane, he runs back into him. Shane is working as a hockey commentator, while Ilya is married to Svetlana and living in the US as a retired hockey player. Although he knows he shouldn't, he allows himself to get to know Shane again.

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    20 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    They meet again after 10 years. Shane commentator Ilya retired. Building friendship and more…

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    At twelve, Ilya Rozanov is sent to Canada to be trained by the best of the best.
    He lives with the Hollanders for the next three years, until he suddenly goes back to Russia.
    They meet again in 2008.
    Things have changed.

    OR
    Childhood Hollanov AU with a lot of focus on them growing up together and then them finding their way back to each other.

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    17 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This should be interesting!

  18. Rec *

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    Boston University.

    Shane Hollander: Junior, 21, player for the Boston University Terriers, and majoring in Human Physiology.

    Ilya Rozanov: Junior, 21, player for the Boston University Terriers, and majoring in finance.

    Shane and Ilya work well together on the ice, but there is no confusion that they aren't fans of each other. Shane is constantly fed up with Ilya showing up late and not taking things as seriously as him. Ilya likes to tease him, but he always puts his all in during games. It’s been like this since they started two and half year ago.

    Midway through the fall semester, Ilya takes a bad hit and is taken off the ice during the game. Shane comes up with an unorthodox solution to fulfill Ilya's physical needs while he recovers, and Shane's academic needs for extra credit.

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    AKA giving your teammate blow jobs so he doesn't re-injure his knee and can play hockey is a perfectly reasonable thing to do.

    *SMAU previously uploaded to twitter, now uploaded here for ease of reading*

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    16 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    SMAU college hockey. Ilya hurts his knee. Shane helps with stretching and more, more, more.
    Worth rereading.

  19. Rec *

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    Stick to your guns, Ilya thinks. Sex. With Hollander. That’s simple. Straightforward.

    Except nothing about this night has been straightforward. The more time he spends with Hollander, the more he wants him - and not just the sex. He wants it all: the reading glasses, earnest ramblings, moral compulsions. The sweetness Hollander tries to hide. The way he holds back from almost everyone, even from himself, but never from Ilya.

    ***
    or: After Vegas, Ilya knows he should end it with Hollander. He likes trouble, yes. Doesn’t mean he likes feeling scraped raw by wanting impossible things. Then they are marooned together at an airport for a very long, very strange night during which Ilya begins to suspect – shakily, reluctantly – that they might be… something.

    NOW COMPLETE!

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    16 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya decides to break up with Shane at the airport. Shane acknowledges it but still tries to spend the last day together. Both are tender and caring. Romantic, sweet and angsty story. Worth reread.

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    What does it mean to love someone who can't be fully known? These stories examine the architecture of connection—the walls built, the doors left unlocked, the people patient enough to wait on the other side.

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    15 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Very interesting

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