1 - 20 of 4,408 Bookmarks by Varadia
Navigation
List of Bookmarks
-
Deep Misunderstanding by some1_around
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
“Am I a bad friend?”
Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.
Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.
Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
+++
“You know I think about you all the time,
And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
And how bad it must have been for you back then,
And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”Bookmarked by Varadia
12 Mar 2026
-
The Jane from Montreal Mystery by a_stray_thief (ashtraythief)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
“So,” Cliff starts. “Ottawa.”
“Ottawa,” Roz repeats, and the way he says it, half-amused, half-quizzical, gives Cliff nothing.
“It’s not Montreal.”
Roz looks offended. “Why would I go to fucking Montreal?”
Cliff shrugs, going for casual. “Montreal Girl? I thought, you know, if you ever go to Canada…”
Roz scoffs. “You and Montreal girl. You say I am obsessed with her, but is you who always talks about her.”
“Yeah, because you’re always texting her!”
“Well, I like to get laid.”
And there’s Cliff’s opening.
Or: Cliff has been suspecting that Roz moved to Ottawa for his Montreal girl for a while now. And tonight, they’re going to go out for drinks and he’s finally going to get some answers. Not even two overeager rookies are going to stop him. Except things don’t quite go as Cliff planned and Jane from Montreal is not what he expected.
Series
- Part 1 of Hollanov from the Outside
Bookmarked by Varadia
11 Mar 2026
-
Lonely is the Night by grapenehi
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types
10 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
It was two years on from returning Leia to her adoptive parents on Alderaan, and it wasn't that Obi-Wan didn't think he deserved to be haunted by his former Padawan; he knew he very much did. But at least all his previous visions had had the decency to stay outside. And silent.
Now Obi-Wan has an apparition of Darth Vader showing up in his home on Tatooine, standing over him in his kitchen, and sitting down with him at mealtimes. And, to make matters worse, he keeps saying the oddest things.
Things like, "I'm sorry," and "I killed Emperor Palpatine," and "I handed the Imperial government over to Bail Organa in exchange for your address."
Worst of all: "I love you, Obi-Wan."
Crazy old wizard, indeed.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 64,594
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 116
- Kudos:
- 623
- Bookmarks:
- 45
- Hits:
- 3,175
Bookmarked by Varadia
11 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
“Marlow’s death is a tragedy for the hockey community. We lost an athlete at the peak of his career, well before his time.”
“Our hearts go out to Boston.”
“This casts a long shadow on Raiders captain Ilya Rozanov. What really happened that night?”
“Yes, lots of speculation about Rozanov, whose year has been nothing but casualty after casualty. Truly bizarre series of events in the hockey world.”
Something dark is going on with Rozanov. A curse from the past that won't let him go.
Shane has his own secrets to protect. No one can ever know what he really is. Not even Ilya.
But if they’re going to tread dangerous water, they might as well do it together.
(Cursed!Ilya and Folktale Creature!Shane, a ghosts and monsters AU)
Bookmarked by Varadia
10 Mar 2026
-
The chips are set to fall by icopythefax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 49,141
- Chapters:
- 14/?
- Collections:
- 10
- Comments:
- 3,607
- Kudos:
- 5,800
- Bookmarks:
- 1,806
- Hits:
- 101,440
Bookmarked by Varadia
10 Mar 2026
-
The Ilya Rozanov Guide to Building a Village by xia drabbles (xianvar)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
Wish babies don’t exist, but Ilya still somehow ends up with a kid – 9 months after winning the cup. And since he’s never been one to back down from a challenge, he’s determined to also win at parenthood… and along the way, realises that he has the village it takes to raise a kid right around him already.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,000
- Chapters:
- 7/10
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 101
- Kudos:
- 373
- Bookmarks:
- 70
- Hits:
- 3,895
Bookmarked by Varadia
09 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.
No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.
When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?
“I thought we could go through the fixtures and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”
“A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.
“It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.
“And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”
Bookmarked by Varadia
09 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Robby frowned and looked at Jack. "Is it me or are you now off Monday through Thursday?"
"Yeah, I figure we can drive out Tuesday morning and come back in time for my shift Friday night."
Robby's eyebrows rose in surprise. "Did someone invite you to the cabin I rented?" Jack tilted his head and just looked at Robby, silent and expectant. After a long moment, Robby huffed a resigned laugh, like he wondered why he even bothered protesting. "Jack, would you like to come hiking with me?"
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 45,470
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Collections:
- 2
- Comments:
- 648
- Kudos:
- 2,418
- Bookmarks:
- 528
- Hits:
- 29,310
Bookmarked by Varadia
09 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
At the corner store, the guy asks what brand of cigarettes Shane wants. Shane has never paid enough attention to Ilya’s cigarettes to notice a brand name; he asks for Marlboro, because at least it’s a name he knows.
At home, on his balcony, he cracks the pack and lights one. The smell curves towards him slowly, diffuse in the city air.
He closes his eyes. If he focuses, it’s three months ago and he’s sitting in Ilya’s bed and Ilya is resting his chin on Shane’s shoulder. Stay, he’s murmuring. I am not done with you yet.
—
Or: Shane has a thing about smells.
Series
- Part 18 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,951
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 39
- Kudos:
- 643
- Bookmarks:
- 81
- Hits:
- 3,340
Bookmarked by Varadia
09 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
It’s nice, having a husband. Even nicer when the doctor leaves and Ilya turns to hold him properly, wrapping both arms around his shoulders, eyes gooey and soft as he looks at Shane like something treasured.
Shane can’t tell him. He can’t lose this, the way Ilya is looking at him, the ease in how he touches Shane, his husband. No amount of lights shining in his eyes or shouting at the top of his lungs would hurt as much as seeing Ilya’s expression shutter, seeing his face look like it did at Sochi, cold and closed off and not Shane’s anything.
(OR: Shane wakes up in the future and realizes he has everything he's ever wanted. He doesn't tell anyone he's missing a decade worth of memories as he comes back to himself in pieces.)
Bookmarked by Varadia
09 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
5 things Robby taught the trainees, and 1 thing they taught him.
Series
- Part 5 of tzedek, tzedek, tirdof
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 49,480
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Comments:
- 548
- Kudos:
- 1,125
- Bookmarks:
- 142
- Hits:
- 17,551
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
An exploration of Judaism, medicine, and what it means to heal.
Set pre and post-season 1.
Series
- Part 3 of tzedek, tzedek, tirdof
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,630
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Comments:
- 242
- Kudos:
- 1,086
- Bookmarks:
- 187
- Hits:
- 12,027
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
this was what they meant, he thought, in the haftarot of consolation, behold I will set your stones with carbuncle, and I will lay your foundations with sapphires, the foundations of his soul had been cleared out and replaced with glittering stones and he felt— free, unencumbered, like nothing and nobody could hurt him, not ever again.
Pittsburgh, 1986-1990.
Series
- Part 1 of tzedek, tzedek, tirdof
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off. Shane wants it to be Wednesday. But no matter what, Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off.
”Fuck,” he croaks. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”
Chapter 1: Shane wakes up on the same Tuesday over and over again after leaving Rozanov in a rush. Tuesday is his second least favourite day of the week, so he's not really happy about it.
Chapter 2: Ilya notices Shane acts strangely. He just never remembers.
Series
- Part 1 of HR Time Loop
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 24,663
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Comments:
- 667
- Kudos:
- 3,022
- Bookmarks:
- 925
- Hits:
- 24,688
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
This is heaven and I'd die for it by Deerlie_03
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
For one, singular, blissful moment, nothing is wrong when Ilya wakes up.
And then the bubble pops.
With something less like a pinprick and more like a gunshot.
--
After Ilya is outed he has to deal with being the only openly queer player in the league, being Russian, and being in love with Hollander even after he ran away all at once. It sucks. He does it anyway.
Series
- Part 1 of The body aches when you tell it to quit
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 28,998
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Collections:
- 7
- Comments:
- 557
- Kudos:
- 4,856
- Bookmarks:
- 1,356
- Hits:
- 53,700
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
They're playing a game and Shane is going to win. Eventually. With some help. Maybe.
Series
- Part 4 of win conditions
Bookmarked by Varadia
08 Mar 2026
-
RUN BOY RUN [VID] Queerness Makes Queerness Possible by nordreys
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Dec 2025
Tags
Summary
queer syntax is infinite. queerness makes queerness possible.
being gay and being a hockey player and the years in between until something helps you realize change is possible.
Series
- Part 6 of vids
Bookmarked by Varadia
07 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
When Shane's day goes to shit and he can't hold it together in his usual way, he shuts down completely, and Ilya is out of his depth but desperate to help
Bookmarked by Varadia
07 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
It's the first game between Ottawa and Montreal since Shane transferred. Montreal's new center is out for blood, and when he manages to get under Shane's skin, Hollander surprises them all.
Bookmarked by Varadia
07 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
It occurs to Ilya that he doesn't belong here. But then, this is a necessary migration.
Bookmarked by Varadia
07 Mar 2026