19 Bookmarks by merstad

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    Set after season 1.
    Shane and Ilya try this dating thing for real.
    Slice-of-life explorations on sex, rivalry, and looove.

    Now complete!

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Pop star Shane Hollander is no stranger to crowds and success, but when an anonymous gunman at a press appearance threatens his life, the safety of his upcoming tour is called into question. Desperate to keep their cash cow not only safe, but happy, League Records hires former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov to provide 24/7 personal security for Shane. As the two spend time together, Shane Hollander realizes that the real threat to his life, to his career, is his own heart...and the way that he feels for the very man he is depending on to keep him safe.

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    86,809
    Chapters:
    21/21
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    15 Jun 2026

  3. This has been deleted, sorry!

    25 May 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    English
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    96,881
    Chapters:
    13/13
    Collections:
    4
    Comments:
    8,578
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    44,298
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    10,336
    Hits:
    1,036,299

    11 May 2026

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander accidentally became a mom to a fully grown adult hockey player who plays for Boston while he still plays for Montreal. He's not exactly sure how he got here but he loves his helping his baby and sometimes drags Ilya into it.

     

    This is directly fanfiction of another fic linked in the notes.

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    1/1
    Comments:
    63
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    2,553
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    03 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    180,137
    Chapters:
    14/?
    Collections:
    18
    Comments:
    21,345
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    45,076
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    16,884
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    1,895,609

    26 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    21/21
    Comments:
    1,460
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    31,295
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    7,198
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    638,836

    21 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov had been household names for years, yet the media still treated them like gladiators thrown into an arena for public entertainment. Hollywood had never manufactured a rivalry this blatant before—and of course they were the guinea pigs. The blueprint. The cautionary tale in the making.
    The money was obscene. The roles were constant.
    And the studios? They were practically frothing at the mouth.
    If Shane landed a blockbuster, Ilya was mysteriously cast in a competing one within days. Rival studios loved the drama, the headlines, the built‑in war.

    And if Ilya was favored to win at the box office against Shane, well then, who was Ilya to complain about it?

    Boring Canadian: Got to go
    BC: Text you later?
    Ilya: Okay
    Ilya: Don’t get hard thinking of me blowing you
    BC: Fuck you!
    Ilya: You’re hard, aren’t you?
    BC: …
    Ilya: My good little slut
    BC: TURNING OFF MY PHONE NOW!!!!!!!!

    ----
    Or Shane and Ilya have a complicated work-life relationship, and it becomes so much more than either of them could have ever imagined.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    30/30
    Comments:
    468
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    835
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    31,973

    21 Apr 2026

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    “I want our family,” Ilya said. “I want children. Permanence, I think is the word... A life with you. More than anything.”

    Shane felt his throat tighten. “I want that too.”

    Ilya nodded, eyes swelling. “I know. That is why I need to say everything now. Before I lose the nerve.”

    He took Shane’s hands, grounding himself. “I am trying to be strong for you. But I need you to be strong for me too.”

    “I am,” Shane said immediately, almost offended.

    “I know,” Ilya said. “But I need you to listen.”

    Shane nodded. “I am listening.”

    “I do not want to play hockey much longer,” Ilya said quietly. “Maybe couple more seasons. And then I am done.”

    Shane stared at him. “Done?”

    “Yes.”

    “With hockey. You’re serious?”

    “Very,” Ilya said.

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    Set one year after The Long Game, this story follows the fallout of a commissioner who refuses to loosen his grip, and the players who finally refuse to bend.

    Shane and Ilya are done playing by the rules of others. They're ready for a life, a family, each other and determining what their legacy really is. They're ready to play for keeps.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    2,141
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    940
    Hits:
    85,210

    18 Apr 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 38

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    Jacki's eyes went wide. Not angry. Just startled.

    “You want to fuck a guy?”

    “Together,” Hayden said quickly. “Maybe.”

    She stared at him, incredulous. “Where is this coming from, Hayd?”

    He hesitated, then sighed. “So Shane…”

    “Shane,” she repeated, cutting him off. “Your best friend.” Her tone sharpened. “You want to fuck Shane?”

    “Jesus,” he hissed. “Not so loud. And no. I mean…God, I don’t know.”

    Shit. He did. He wanted to fuck his best friend.
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    This takes place post-Heated Rivalry but pre-The Long Game. This story finds Shane and Ilya having broken up at some point after the cottage and after Hayden realized that they had been in a relationship.

    Hayden has realized he has feelings for his best friend. But he doesn't want to lose his wife.

    Shane had never been interested in a threesome before. But maybe this time, something will change his mind.

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    Chapters:
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    18 Apr 2026

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    “I can’t do this anymore, Hollander.” His voice sounded steadier than he felt, and he was glad. "I don't want to do this."

    “I-Ilya, no. What do you mean? What are you saying?” Shane’s voice was panicked, frantic.

    “We are done, Shane.” Then, "Goodbye, Hollander."

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    10 Apr 2026

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    "If you’d taken ten seconds longer, I’d have been gone.”
    Shane shot a dark look into the rearview mirror.

    “You were supposed to be gone seventy-five seconds ago,” Ilya replied mockingly. “Or did your watch stop working?”

    Damn it.

    Caught, Shane answered as calmly as he could. “Setting your car on fire took longer than expected. I miscalculated.” He figured it would be better to lie, than to admit he did in fact hesitate.

    Ilya’s grin was unmistakable. Shane could practically feel it. What he couldn’t tell was why it was there. Did Ilya believe him—and find his miscalculation amusing? Or did he not believe him at all?

    Ilya didn’t need to know that Shane hadn’t just hesitated to leave him behind—but had seriously considered running back into the woods and risk his own ass for this bastard.

    Yakuza x Bratva AU

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    Chapters:
    69/?
    Comments:
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    273
    Bookmarks:
    139
    Hits:
    14,889

    10 Apr 2026

  14. Public Bookmark *

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    Shane Hollander is the closeted captain of the Montreal Voyageurs. Ilya Rozanov is a man with blood on his hands and love in his chest, even if he refuses to name it.

    What begins as a one-night stand in Boston becomes something deceptively close to forever...but danger lurks at every turn.

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    English
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    12,539
    Chapters:
    8/8
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    93
    Kudos:
    1,347
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    356
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    27,107

    10 Apr 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    Chapters:
    30/30
    Comments:
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    6,889
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    516,114

    10 Apr 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 48

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    “ When can I do ballet like Barbie?”

    It was a simple request, something Ilya could easily do without much thought with all their resources but it wasn’t easy, this was his little girl and it was ballet they were talking about. She’s standing there with her pink tutu and bows in her hair with a wide smile trying to pliè like Barbie was on the screen but all Ilya could think about was Svetlana and more importantly, mama.

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    Ilya has complicated memories when his daughter asks to do ballet

    Language:
    English
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    34,281
    Chapters:
    7/?
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    196
    Bookmarks:
    48
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    6,327

    07 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 14

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    Ilya is Shane’s boss. Shane is very much not supposed to be Ilya’s live-in concubine. A misunderstanding sends them to the Maldives together for two weeks, where lines blur, control slips, and neither of them comes back the same.

    Language:
    English
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    6,652
    Chapters:
    5/?
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    93
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    14
    Hits:
    3,446

    07 Jan 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 29

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    AU where Ilya Rozanov stays in the KHL after the Prospect Cup. Shane then meets him

    for the second time at the Lillehammer Olympics,

    for the third time in a place where they can't see each others faces,

    for the fourth time when Ilya joins the MLH roughly 6 years aft their first meeting. And things happen after that.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    31,177
    Chapters:
    9/?
    Comments:
    14
    Kudos:
    48
    Bookmarks:
    29
    Hits:
    1,771

    07 Jan 2026

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    3
    Bookmarks:
    165

    06 Jan 2026

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