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    21 Apr 2026

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    He knew it stung Ilya, people not understanding. It stung him too. Because to Shane, loving Ilya was like breathing and also like standing on solid ground after years of drifting. It flooded him and steadied him at the same time. It hurt, knowing the world reduced them to a rivalry, a strange story, a piece of scandalous gossip when what they had was so much more. He wanted to be by Ilya’s side for everything, the mundane, the bright and the hard. And maybe not everyone who was in love felt like this, so overwhelmed and so steadied all at once. But Shane did. And if love was a contest, well… he is the winner.
    Best couple. Number one. Most epic love story ever.

    Or 4 times Shane told people him and Ilya were practically soulmates and the 1 time the universe told him.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    01 Apr 2026

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    Shane wears Ilya’s jersey....and Ilya? Ilya short-circuits so hard he nearly forgets how to stand.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    ⚠️ SPOILER WARNING This takes place after The Long Game, so spoilers if you haven’t read the books! ⚠️

    After years of rivalry and hidden love, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are finally on the same team. Married, out, and playing for the Ottawa Centaurs. As they chase their first Stanley Cup together, the season feels like a dream. But when an injury sidelines Shane for weeks, the dream fractures and old fears resurface. Doubts about worth, regret, and whether one can ever truly be enough for the other.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Shane volunteers to be mic'd up on his first game against the Voyageurs in his first season with the Centaurs. What could go wrong?

    A lot... He hopes.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    22 Feb 2026

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    It’s perhaps the sweetest Svetlana has ever known Ilyusha to be. She has always been granted access to the more affectionate side of Ilyusha, the one that he rarely shows to anyone else, but it was never anything compared to this. This tenderness, this adoration, that he gives so freely to Shane. It’s like her best friend is a completely different person right now, and she starts to wonder if maybe she was wrong earlier.

    Maybe, instead of being too boring for Ilyusha, perhaps Shane Hollander is giving him the space to become something soft. Something without walls, or masks, or armour.

    (Or, 5 times people doubt their love for each other, and 1 time they are certain of it.)

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    22 Feb 2026

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    “Where is my baby?” Ilya asks as soon as he opens the door to the Pikes’ SUV when it pulls into the parking lot of Christ Church Cathedral. 

    “Lovely to see you too, Rozanov,” Hayden says as he opens his car door. 

    “Hi, Hayden,” Shane says from behind Ilya. “Lovely to see you. Please ignore my husband.”

    Ilya can’t even be bothered to snark back at either of them, because today is his big day. 

    Well, mostly. It’s sort of Amber’s day, too, he guesses, and kind of Shane’s as well if one were to look at it from a very specific angle, but mostly it’s Ilya’s. 

    And as Amber gives him a cheesy grin when she sees him (a new development as of the last couple of weeks), Ilya knows even his boring husband and his boring husband’s loser best friend can’t ruin this perfect day.

    Because today, Ilya’s becoming a godfather.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Ilya knows that, between him and Shane, he's the more affectionate of the two. He's not sure if it's because he's from Europe, where everyone greets each other with a hug and a kiss on the cheek, or if it's because he grew up so starved for love and affection that he can't do anything except show Shane how much he loves him at any chance that he has.

    So, yes, he knows that he's the one most likely to kiss Shane on the cheek when he skates by him at practice or come up behind Shane when he's cooking dinner just to wrap his arms around him or fall on top of Shane while he's reading on the couch, desperate to have his skin touching Shane's.

    But, Shane… Shane loves Ilya differently. It's quieter. More intentional.


     

    Or, five times that Shane loved Ilya in his quiet way, and one time that he loved Ilya loudly.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    The Ottawa Centaurs love and respect their married teammates. But if the team has to hear them fuck nasty one more time they will riot.

    Can Shane and Ilya keep it down while getting down? The answer won't surprise you.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Harris launches a new series for the Centaurs' social media: having the team answer his question of the day!

    This follows the season after The Long Game, when Shane joins the team on their road to the Stanley Cup, as they answer questions like who's the hottest/funniest/most perceptive Centaur, different preferences, rituals, and more.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent years wanting Shane Hollander quietly, carefully, never letting himself reach too far. After an injury changes everything, Shane stays with him for a week, and Ilya finally learns what it means to care openly, love honestly, and choose the thing he’s been afraid to want.

    Or, When Shane is forced to stay with him after a hospital discharge, Ilya finds himself doing the one thing he’s always avoided, loving Shane out loud. A story about caretaking, fear, constellations, printed memories, and finally choosing each other.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    Twelve years after filming their first CCM ad together, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are asked to return for a follow-up campaign. The offer sparks reflection and conversation about privacy, visibility, and what it means to exist openly as a married couple in the NHL.

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    “Okay,” Farah said, brightly. “So. CCM reached out.”

    Shane straightened instinctively. He and Ilya were both sponsored by CCM, they had been for years. Would CCM pull their sponsorships now that they were publicly out? Would they only want to keep working with one of them now that they were married and would be playing on the Centaurs together this season?

    “They want you two for a new ad campaign,” she continued, eyes sparkling. “A twelve-year retrospective referencing the one you shot together the summer before your rookie year.”

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    06 Feb 2026

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    August 2017: Svetlana finally meets Jane, because Ilya has failed to anticipate the inevitable result of sharing the code for his front door with more than one person.

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    02 Feb 2026

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