19 Bookmarks by idahowinter

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    Shane never got over what happened in that last season in Montreal. The first year in Ottawa was never supposed to break them like this. Neither of them know it's the last time they will argue like this. After a brutal loss and a worse fight, Shane vanishes-taken by the one person Ilya has spent years trying to ignore and forget. When the case ends in Ottawa River, everyone else accepts the inevitable.
    Every except Ilya. Because Shane has never been good at letting go. And Ilya has never been good at giving up on him.

    Shane disappears into the river-and Ilya is the only one who refuses to let him go.

    Everyone else believes Shane is dead; Ilya believes he's still fighting his way home.

    Complete.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane & Ilya discover a new shared kink. This is basically a series of interconnected/chronological one shots of them figuring out how (and maybe why) they like it, while being sweet and in love Hollanov (all smut and fluff, no angst here).

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    "Oh god, Ilya," he said, voice wrecked. "I'm so close."

    "Let go," Ilya said. "For me."

    Shane's eyes snapped open. He searched Ilya's face, like he needed the reassurance still.

    Ilya grabbed his hand and pressed it to his own hard cock. "You feel that?" he asked, voice low. "I'm about to come in my pants just thinking about it, Shane."

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    Chapters:
    17/?
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    14 Apr 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 68

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    Unrelated one shots about Ilya being sad. Check tags and author’s notes for any trigger warnings 💜

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    31 Jan 2026

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    27 Jan 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    Chapters:
    12/23
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    1,960
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    24 Jan 2026

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    Shane has always lived inside himself.

    Inside his head. Inside his routines. Inside the version of him everyone trusts to hold it all together. He has learned through the years how to be disciplined, successful, untochable—how to carry love and expectation withouth letting either slip.

    What he hasn’t learned is how to ask for help.

    Luckily, his boyfriend Ilya, who everyone believe is his rival, notices first. He starts to see the patterns Shane won’t name out loud and the silences that last a little too long. He loves Shane, and that means paying attention, even when what he finds is frightening, even when he struggles too.

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    Shane slowly develops an eating disorder during the time he and Ilya are secretly dating while still playing for Montreal and Boston, and Ilya is the first one to notice, and the first one to try to do something about it.

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    142,889
    Chapters:
    31/34
    Comments:
    799
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    1,978
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    102,000

    24 Jan 2026

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    “Should call you the Ottawa Puppies,” says the Toronto centre, Svensson. As an insult it makes no sense, so Ilya ignores it, until he continues, “Hear Hollander keeps you on a short leash.”

    Ilya is the captain, so if anything, he should be holding the leash. In English, you can be singular or plural, but he knows what Svensson is trying to say. He is saying Ilya Rozanov, you are Hollander’s bitch.

    “Only sometimes,” Ilya replies, grinning. He wins the face off.

    OR: Ilya trains himself to be a very, very good guard dog for Shane.

    Series
    • Part 1 of Dog
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    Chapters:
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    23 Jan 2026

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    This is how it happens sometimes.

    Ilya’s usually the one in charge. He says just the right filthy, loaded, and persuasive words. He strips them both and pushes Shane onto the bed or the nearest flat surface. From the moment things get heated, Shane is usually putty in his hands.

    Sometimes, though. Sometimes Ilya doesn’t call the shots (sometimes, maybe, he doesn’t want to). Sometimes, Shane makes a sharp, straightforward statement, leaving Ilya feeling unmoored. When this happens, any chance Ilya had at being in control is instantly gone.

    Seven words from Shane, and Ilya loses every bit of power he may have held.

    or, Shane walks Ilya like a dog.

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    21,258

    23 Jan 2026

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    “Shane…”

    “Who the fuck do you think you’re calling Shane?”

    “Sweetheart,” Ilya corrects, tilting his head down against Shane’s grip on his hair to try to catch his lips. “Please.”

    “I can do everything she can,” Shane says. “But you’ve been a bit too naughty today. I’m tying you up first.”

    “Oh, no,” Ilya says, voice going high and breathy. “That’s terrible.”

    Or - The jealous Shane/pathetic top Ilya fic where Shane makes Ilya beg for it

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    384
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    23,936
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    4,919
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    304,017

    23 Jan 2026

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    Everyone is born with the first words their soulmate will say to them tattooed on their body. It’s considered polite to try to make your greetings unique, to avoid any potentially life-altering, terrible miscommunications. 

    Ilya Rozanov is not polite. 

    Language:
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    Words:
    44,505
    Chapters:
    14/15
    Comments:
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    Bookmarks:
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    23 Jan 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

    -

    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    16/?
    Comments:
    3,829
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    15,644
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    402,191

    22 Jan 2026

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    start from chapter 2

  14. Public Bookmark 19

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    "It's your birthday." Shane tries a different approach. They shouldn't be fighting. They should be sneaking away like they had planned and celebrating Ilya. Because he deserves to be celebrated. Because he's Shane's favorite person.

    He thinks briefly that if breaking up with Alice is what will get them back on track, he'd do it in a heartbeat. All Ilya had to do was ask.

    "Yes, and I know my wish." Ilya bites. "For you to leave me alone."

    **

    A 5 + 1 trope where Hollanov have 5 summers together as best friends and 1 very terrible summer that starts their rivalry.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    9
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    119
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    1,862

    22 Jan 2026

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    “Hey,” Shane said quickly, breathless. “It’s me.”

    “...Hello, Hollander.” Rozanov’s voice was deep and solemn.

    “Are you okay?”

    A short laugh echoed down the phone. “What do you think?”

    Shane cringed at himself. “Right, sorry. Stupid question.”

    “Is fine.” Rozanov sighed. “I am okay, I suppose… I do not know.”

    “I’m… I’m sorry.”

    “Why? You are not the one who sold story.”

    ~~

    The coach's son from Ilya's youth sells his story, and Ilya is left to pick up the pieces. Hollander helps more than he could have ever expected.

     

    set early 2016, pre-tuna melt

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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    233
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    8,322
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    1,302
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    53,926

    07 Jan 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have a lot of sex. A lot of hot, intimate, dirty sex. But sometimes they don't. Sometimes, for one reason or another, they find more intimacy in the unexpected moments where their plans to fuck don't work out.

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    Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.

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    I: Shane Hollander has too much to drink.
    II: Ilya Rozanov gets the fucking flu.
    III: Shane Hollander suffers an Autistic shutdown.
    IV: Ilya Rozanov misses his mother.

    Language:
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    24,139
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    504
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    7,409
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    1,818
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    86,051

    31 Dec 2025

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    Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.

    The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.

    It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.

    There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.

    *

    Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,052
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    49,837
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    11,279
    Hits:
    562,361

    31 Dec 2025

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    Rozanov, Ottawa's captain, gets injured during a match against the Voyageurs.

    'Might' contain soft moments between Ilya and Shane as Ilya recovers

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    Language:
    English
    Words:
    18,624
    Chapters:
    20/?
    Comments:
    223
    Kudos:
    1,671
    Bookmarks:
    315
    Hits:
    51,790

    28 Dec 2025

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    Every time your soulmate lies, their words are written on you.

    Shane doesn’t lie often. His soulmate does though.

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    51,181
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Collections:
    5
    Comments:
    963
    Kudos:
    12,157
    Bookmarks:
    2,495
    Hits:
    178,607

    28 Dec 2025

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