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To know the sun by IbecomewhatIbelieve
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Oct 2026
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It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
*Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)Series
- Part 2 of To know the sun
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"You're not Deaf though, right?" Hollander asked.
Ilya shook his head. "No, not completely."
"Do you use hearing aids or anything?"
"Ah no. My papa says is lazy. I can hear, so should try harder."
Ilya is hard of hearing. He used to sign with his mama, who was Deaf. But his papa won't let him have help. He finds he has more in common with Shane Hollander than he expected.
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Growing Sideways by BriefExhalation
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Jul 2026
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“Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”
“How bad is it?”
“Shane, please.”
“Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”
He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”
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After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?
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Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.
And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.
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Another red light.
“Ilya?” Shane leans closer this time, brushing his knuckles lightly against Ilya’s jaw.
“Where does it hurt?” His voice is tight, urgent. “Talk to me.”
No answer.
Ilya’s head has tipped toward the window again. His lashes rest against fever-flushed skin, cheeks burning red under the passing streetlights. His breathing is too shallow — each inhale catching faintly at the end like it hurts to pull air in.
“Ilya?” Shane presses. “Hey. Tell me where it hurts.”
Nothing. The silence slams into him.
“Fuck—” His hand tightens on Ilya’s thigh. He gives it a firmer shake. “Fuck, fuck, fuck. No. Ilya. Hey.”Ilya doesn’t get sick often.
But when he does, it’s never small.
Fever is the one thing that can kill him.
He knows it. The doctors know it. The ER staff knows it.
Shane doesn’t.
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god, i loved you so by rilla
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
30 Sep 2026
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'Boy meets boy, boy falls in love with boy, boy falls out of love with boy, boy files for divorce, boy discovers rare and shocking pregnancy, boy gives birth two weeks after divorce is finalised, boy makes colour-coded custody schedule spreadsheet.'
Not all love stories have happy endings.
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It was a Friday when the video dropped.
“What is happening?” He asked St Simon, who was holding his phone tight to his chest, his expression odd. “Someone has died?”
Across the room he could see Marlow moving slowly upright from where he had been doing floor stretches, his phone in his hand as well, his face pinched.
“It’s Hollander,” St Simon said.
The bottom of Ilya’s stomach fell out, closely followed by the rest of Ilya’s organs. His chest hurt so acutely that he thought he must be having a heart attack.
“Not dead,” St Simon added quickly, reaching out to grab Ilya’s shoulder when Ilya’s knees actually buckled. “Jesus, sorry. I should have - no it’s just -”
“Someone tell me what the fuck is going on,” Ilya snapped, “and everyone else shut up.”
Marlow reached him now, held his phone out to Ilya, open already to an article with a headline huge enough Ilya could easily make out the HOLLANDER blaring out of it even before his eyes focused and he took the phone from Marlow.
A video is posted online, for Shane it feels like a death sentence. For some parts of him, it is.
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Don`t forget to buy milk by Hollys_kitten (HollyWoodlawn)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
13 Oct 2026
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Buy milk
Take Anya to the vet
Count Shane’s frecklesIlya leaves himself notes. Some become more important than others over time.
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"I'm okay. I'm right here."
"You have not been. You have not been okay, and you have not been right here, and I did not know—"
"Nobody knew. I disappeared, Ilya, I wanted to. I needed to."
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it's been years since ilya saw shane hollander. he's different now.
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at the end of suffering, there’s a home by aioio
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Feb 2026
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Sets during the COVID-19 pandemic.
Yuna Hollander is tired, cautious, and quietly prejudiced. Ilya Rozanov is sick, far from home, and far more fragile than she’s prepared for.
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Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.
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stay (cause you're all i need) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
02 Feb 2026
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“Don’t go,” Ilya manages to choke out, burying his face under Shane’s chin and squeezing his eyes shut. He inhales sharply, pressing his nose deeper into Shane’s throat to breathe in his scent. Right now, it’s Ilya’s body soap, vanilla and spice, masked under salt and skin. He inhales it like it's his own personal supply of air, what he needs to extinguish the burning in his lungs.
“Ilya,” Shane says, voice urgent, “you’re shaking, I—your breathing’s too fast—” He tries to pull back, needs to see Ilya’s face, needs to see what’s wrong, but Ilya just shakes his head and clings tighter.
“Please don’t go, Shane,” Ilya whispers, pleading. I’m sorry, please don’t go, don’t go—
OR: ilya and shane accidentally recreate the tuna-melt day, and ilya realizes just how much old wounds hurt.
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here at the end of all things by nomadsland
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Sep 2026
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A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.
Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.
Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.
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Stay by Vivwrites89
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
09 Oct 2026
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The most I could ever write about a main character death. I can't bring myself to write a summary. Warning: sadness ahead. I wanted to tag HEA but y'all will have to decide.
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
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A New Way to Feel by holyshitballs
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Oct 2026
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Shane is left with a spinal cord injury after a catastrophic team event, and now he is left to rebuild a life that he didn’t sign up for.
Told through Shane’s therapy sessions and the memories he refused to face, the story follows grief, survivor’s guilt, rehab, and the slow realization that finding a way forward into his new reality may also mean finding a way back to Ilya—even when neither of them knows what that path is supposed to look like anymore.
This story is heavy, but it is also packed with tenderness, hope, and so much love. Enjoy!
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"Ilya was terrified of the nights when the darkness threatened to swallow him whole. When not even Shane’s warm and comforting presence kept him anchored. When the tears came unbidden and would not stop.
He should be happy.
He was not.
It was never enough.
Ilya hated that the most."Ilya is depressed, and he has to realise that not even the cottage and Shane could fix that. One night, it all becomes too much. One night, Shane has to wake up and wonder where Ilya has gone. One night that leaves them to pick up the pieces of something that had started breaking a long time ago.
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Will you look at me? by Bellkru
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
27 May 2026
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He knew Galina noticed. She always noticed. That irritated the shit out of him. He couldn’t hide here, couldn’t control the conversation, not anymore.
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find your own hands by anemmeline
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 Oct 2026
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Being bi is one thing. The other thing? Well, Ilya is still figuring that out.
Or, the gender of it all.
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Hayden is a good friend. The best, probably.
Sometimes good friends have to do bad things, to protect the people they love.
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What if the fanmail leak wasn't an accident?