18 Bookmarks by riley8124
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evermore. by puzzlesandmysteries
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Jun 2026
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Ilya knows what it feels like to drown—for his body to sink deeper and deeper into darkness, to feel pressure in his chest from the water filling his lungs—and right now his whole body shivers in the sharp, familiar chill of heavy liquid enveloping him from the waist down. He knows how this will go. He knows how quickly he’ll be thrashing in the tide gasping for air if he isn’t careful, how easy it will be to slip back down if he never tells anybody.
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Ilya has a bad depressive episode, and Shane helps him through it.
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27 Jun 2026
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Let me love you anyway by shanebug_2481
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Jun 2026
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Things like this didn't happen to other people; Shane knew that. He’d been alive long enough to experience the confused glances and exasperated scoffs that always accompanied his discomfort with things other people didn't even notice. He would not fuck this up – not because he couldn't handle the way the sheets touched his skin. The burning of his skin spread to his eyes as his vision blurred. He squeezed his eyes shut and scrubbed his hands over his face. He would not cry.
The tears fell hot and silent. They pooled at the curve of his jaw and around his chin, puddles of shame and self-contempt. Fucking breathe, he told himself, as he turned the faucet of the shower as far as it could go.
He stood watching the water pool around his feet and slip down the drain until he heard Ilya stir. At first, he wasn't sure if he had really heard his name.
“Shane?… Shane?”
He wanted to yell back, assure Ilya everything was fine, but when he opened his mouth, only a squeak escaped.
“Moya lyubov?”
He cleared his throat and tried again: “In here.”
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27 Jun 2026
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Growing Sideways by BriefExhalation
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jul 2026
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“Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”
“How bad is it?”
“Shane, please.”
“Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”
He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”
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After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?
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27 Jun 2026
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“I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”
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or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.
Ilya has open hands.
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24 Jun 2026
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
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24 Jun 2026
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The frenulum tear by SanLovesAO3
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
11 Jul 2026
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The frenulum tear
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When Shane breaks Ilya's dick during sex
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- Part 1 of My hollanov SMAUs
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23 Jun 2026
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hot boys have stomach issues by 87srivalry
Fandom Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Jul 2026
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“Shane Hollander calls Ilya Rozanov ‘baby’” on repeat
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23 Jun 2026
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Making Headlines by Leonibaloni
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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- Part 3 of Heated Rivalry Sickfics
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22 Jun 2026
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i'm on the karma payment plan by spamhhh33
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
26 Mar 2026
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Hayden’s tics returned three days into the 2021-2022 season. It was his first season without Shane in eleven years.
Or: Hayden Pike has tics and abysmal self-worth. Being signed onto the Montreal Voyageurs does not help that fact. What does help are the people in his corner.
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20 Jun 2026
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How to Be Normal (And How to Be Strange) by cthulhusrose
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
15 Apr 2026
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Shane spends his life trying and failing to be normal. Being different than others isolates him in ways he can't understand, until a late autism diagnosis finally gives him the vocabulary needed to explain himself and his experiences. At first, he's ashamed, but, with Ilya's help, he begins to see the aspects of himself that he spent years hating in a new, brighter light.
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4 times Shane is ashamed of his autistic traits and 1 time Ilya shows him that he doesn't have to be.
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- Part 1 of How To...
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20 Jun 2026
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I Think There’s Something Wrong with Me by disfiguredgrace
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Apr 2026
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Taking place after the events of the Long Game but before Unrivaled, Shane and Ilya are adjusting to the visibility of their relationship. Shane, against the advice of his therapist, scrolls through subtweets about him and Ilya. He stumbles upon a comment calling him autistic, and is shaken up by it. He can’t stop thinking about it, and after asking his therapist, comes to terms with the fact that he really might be.
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20 Jun 2026
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Turn The Other Cheek by shanebug1410
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
25 May 2026
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“I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”
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An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it
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- Part 1 of Shane Hollander Deserves The World
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20 Jun 2026
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You Should Try It Sometime by Gibegal_643
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 Apr 2026
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5 times Shane wasn't aware he was stimming, +1 time he allowed himself to.
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20 Jun 2026
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Circuit Breaker by Shanebug (Wildandflourecent), Wildandflourecent
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
02 Jun 2026
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Shane sighed, but nodded. “I’m just so tired of this. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life dealing with it.”
Shane thought he was angry, but the sentiment just came out sounding sad.Ilya took a deep breath, running his wedding band along Shane’s cheek.
“I know, Sweetheart. But you also have me for the rest of your life. Dealing with it with you.
Tears pricked the corner of Shane’s eyes. Ilya pressed a kiss over his heart, where his head still lay.
Or, glimpses of Shane navigating sensory overload throughout his life, and the ways those around him impact it.
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- Part 4 of Est. 2021
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19 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander is a Machine (A Character Study in Autistic Hypo-Sensitivity) by rainw2000
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
06 Jul 2026
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Hyposensitivity, most commonly seen in autistic people, refers to decreased responsivity to sensory inputs. Those experiencing hyposensitivity have a harder time stimulating their senses than normal, which often leads to sensory-seeking behaviors.
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5 cases where Shane had abnormal sensory responses, +1 time where he wasn't alone in it.
A character study of Shane Hollander through the lens of autistic under-responsivity, because I firmly believe this is the case in cannon and want to depict it.Series
- Part 1 of Musings on Shane Hollander’s Jock Autism
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19 Jun 2026
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Ilya's prescription for his depression has been changed and he is finding it hard to sleep at night. He falls asleep on Shane's lap on a couch in the lobby of a hotel after the all-star weekend. Dallas Kent and Gilbert Comeau find them, but Shane and Ilya are not alone.
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19 Jun 2026
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Parenthood. It's tough no matter which way you spin it, but also being a criminal can add a whole new set of problems to the mix. (This story can probably be read independently of the first part as long as you're familiar GTA V.)
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- Part 2 of Grand Theft Auto V
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15 Apr 2020
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Michael begins to feel the old, familiar panic rise in his throat. The feeling he faked his death to escape; laying in the back of Trevor’s flat-bed, staring up at an empty sky and feeling like this life was a grave dug just for him.
Option C: Kill all your enemies and get everything you want. If it sounds too good to be true, that’s because it is.
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19 Nov 2019