1 - 20 of 167 Works in Cullen Rutherford Has Issues

Navigation

Listing Works

  1. Tags
    Summary

    Cullen Rutherford's worst enemy and greatest asset is his own mind. Addicted to lyrium and dangerously, stupidly in love with the Herald of Andraste, it has sometimes tortured him, but it has always gotten him through. Until now. Haven is on fire, a demigod is stalking them, the Inquisition's war is about to kick off for real, and all he has to keep himself sane enough to survive is a beat up old journal.

    Updated weekly!

     

    The lovely people that have read it have said:

    "I am so excited to read and reread and rereread this."

    "Just love it. Absolutely superb....So delightfully poignant and painful."

    "The tension! The action! The mystery! This gave me all of the Big Feelings. Bravo! 💗💗💗"

    "super impressed with the depth and nuance of your insight."

    "your characterization is spot on and TICKLES me."

    “…if it's not official canon, it should be.”

    “chills.”

    “HELL. YEAH!”

    “Heart-wrenching.”

    “So good!”

    “Absolutely incredible. Words fail me.”

    “Wow! I can’t accurately express how beautifully this all rolls together now. Amazing.”

    “Utterly devastated. This one was so beautiful.”

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    76,407
    Chapters:
    43/?
    Comments:
    330
    Kudos:
    76
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    2,779
  2. Tags
    Summary

    Continuation of Saga Of A Templar

    Cullen Rutherford has issues.
    He has been demon possessed, he has been tortured, he has been turned on and abandoned and forsaken by those he trusted, those he cared about, those he worshiped.
    He has also has found true friends where he least expected them.

    Cullen is now the Teyrn of Western Ferelden and serving the Inquisition. He has forsaken the templar Order and founded his own order of the Verumque where mages and knights are treated as equals and work together toward a common cause - To Serve Ferelden. Or, that's the intention.

    His demon Wrath has now become Valor after making an accord with a feral mabari lost in the Frostback mountains. Valor is at Cullen's side as his guard and companion now.
    Cullen is still restling with his remaining demon which he has named Reverie. He's realizing his mistake.

    Can his companions help him find true freedom and salvation before the Elder One comes for him?
    Will they even figure out what he truly suffers from?
    Can he even ask for the help he needs?

    Posts will come a bit slower for this part.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    746,188
    Chapters:
    32/32
    Comments:
    33
    Kudos:
    53
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    1,521
  3. Tags
    Summary

    Cullen hasn't been the same since Kinloch. He was tortured by demons and blood mages. How could he be the same man after that?
    Now, a decade later, he's part of something he truly believes in again in the Inquisition and he finds himself falling for the Inquisitor.

    A telling of the romance from Cullen's POV set from the start of In Hushed Whispers through to the end.

    An attempt to touch on and maybe expand upon my take on Cullen's PTSD from Kinloch.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    115,201
    Chapters:
    18/25
    Comments:
    43
    Kudos:
    48
    Bookmarks:
    15
    Hits:
    1,881
  4. Tags
    Summary

    9:43 Dragon. A year has passed since Corypheus’ defeat. The Breach and its Rifts are nothing but recent memories. Yet the Inquisition’s power keeps on growing. In a bid to control this, the Chantry summons Inquisitor Lavellan to the trial she was promised - back in that prison cell in Haven - but never received. Ashara always knew the Divine would not suffer a Dalish apostate to have such influence for long. Quite frankly, she is surprised she was left alone as long as she has been. Unfortunately, that resigned understanding does not make saying goodbye any easier.


    For Whumptober 2025:
    DAY 01: “Please don’t cry” - Lamb to Slaughter | Ceremony | Beg for Forgiveness (Chapter 1)
    DAY 03: “I look in people’s windows, transfixed by rose golden glows.” - Isolation | Candlelight | Found Family (Chapter 2)
    DAY 04: “Don’t be scared, I’ve done this before.” - Non-Human Whumper | Iron Rod | Loss of Powers (Chapter 3)
    DAY 08: “Oh horror, oh horror, what did you see?" - Self-Inflicted Injury | Held at gunpoint | Dissociation (Chapter 4)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    9,608
    Chapters:
    3/4
    Collections:
    1
    Kudos:
    5
    Hits:
    43
  5. Tags
    Summary

    The Inquisition is done, the battle is won. The only thing to do now is continue. But Cullen Rutherford is only a shell of the man he once was, lyrium claiming more pieces of his body and his mind with each day. On a journey to Val Chevin, his ship wrecks upon the Waking Sea and Cullen finds himself at the mercy of the waves. Until a creature known as a siren rescues him and reminds him of what it means to be brave. [AU, semi-canon compliant]

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    85,818
    Chapters:
    15/?
    Comments:
    168
    Kudos:
    53
    Bookmarks:
    12
    Hits:
    877
  6. Tags
    Summary

    ♡ Jerkass, self aware Mary Sue Reddit Atheist Hawke traipses around the Fade with a pair of boring ex boyfriends and a spider. ♡

    Whumptember 2025 Day 18.“I don’t see a way out of here”
    Thorny bush | multiple whumpees | labyrinth
    AUgust: Gateway Between Worlds
    Flufftober: Stuck or lost together

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    859
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    2
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    1
    Hits:
    11
  7. Tags
    Summary

    "There were many ex-Templars in the Inquisition, to Erika’s distaste, but there was only one Templar, with a capital T. The Templar, though from Kirkwall, was infamous even at Ostwick, one of the few whose name all mages in the Free Marches knew. Knight-Captain Cullen. Everyone always used to say his name like it was one word: Knightcaptaincullen. He belonged to that illustrious category of Templars, to whom their regular self-righteousness was insufficient, and new and inventive kinds had to be devised on the daily."

    A mage!Trevelyan/Cullen romance where they both have a lot of issues, most of which will only be exacerbated in this fic.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    19,100
    Chapters:
    5/?
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    32
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    492
  8. Tags
    Summary

    ((SEPT 2025 - Still updating. Veilguard did its damndest to ruin this plot which I had worked out before the games release so if a few godly details aren't canon we are just gonna ignore that.))

    The Inquisitor has just faced down the Nightmare in the Fade, but the true nightmare comes when he's back in Skyhold and gets a summons to Ferelden's capital. The Inquisitor keeps more secrets than anyone in the Orlesian Royal Court. Who will find out? Who will help keep secrets? Who will just make out together? (There will be lots of making out)
    Or -- A Skyhold Soap Opera that I won't Apologize For.

    ------
    A self indulgent ridiculous thing that's floated in my head for the last ten years. No, really. I asked a bunch of people back in 2014 when Inquisition was released if they would read a story where the HOF and the Inquisitor were the same person and they all said no. Well, guys, THIS ONE'S NOT FOR YOU! Expect drama, friendship stuff, and romances and love triangles and maybe finally resolve all those feelings you got in Inquisition upon meeting your old love interests from the previous games.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    29,841
    Chapters:
    12/?
    Comments:
    71
    Kudos:
    30
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    643
  9. Tags
    Summary

    Submissions for Rutherest 2025

    Day 1 (Friday, August 29th): Friends, Faith, and Family
    After overhearing a conversation between two Templars, Cullen reports it to Meredith who dismisses him immediately. In response, Cullen takes more lyrium than permitted and spirals before the Maker's Bride.

    Day 2 (Saturday, August 30th): Demons and Duty
    When old thinking patterns arise, Cullen is met with what he believes to be divine retribution.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,387
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    8
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    52
  10. Tags
    Summary

    Cullen spent his life devoted to the Templar Order and to the Chantry. Where did that get him?
    Now, in the dark of night, he's trading one devotion for another.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,942
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    27
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    360
  11. Tags
    Summary

    When Anders was in solitary he begged for any sort of attention. Even from a lost young templar in a broken circle.
    Now Cullen is the Knight Captain of Kirkwall. And wants to renew things with his favorite reluctant mage

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    480
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    10
    Hits:
    89
  12. Tags
    Summary

    A defeated Raleigh Samson is taken prisoner by the Inquisition after the battle in the Arbor Wilds. He wanted to die on the overgrown cobblestone; unfortunately, Cullen Rutherford and Melora Lavellan don't give a flying rat. Even the Inquisitor, his enemy won't let him die, entrusting him to Melora's care to recover from his addiction - a (willing) sacrifice to construct a treatment plan for any red Templars who can be saved. Samson is determined to make them regret it.

    Somewhere along the way, he begins to forget his goal.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    69,536
    Chapters:
    13/?
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    52
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    306
  13. Tags
    Summary

    Of all of the inane things Commander Cullen could have said, “you’re not like other mages” found its home right at the top of the Unofficial Greatest Hits List of Shitty Things he had said to the Herald since she’d arrived in Haven three months ago — a seemingly insurmountable feat. At least no one could accuse him of half-assing things. Cullen gave a hundred and ten percent to literally everything.

    The worst part about the entire thing was, it had been intended as a compliment.


    ———


    A collection of one-shots depicting key moments leading up to the relationship between tiny Inquisitor Damiana Lavellan and the esteemed Commander Cullen Rutherford.

    rating may go up later!

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    15,336
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    20
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    553
  14. Tags
    Summary

    Cullen has spent months balancing on the razor's edge of his own broken pieces, keeping Dorian at arm's length to protect them both. But when the truth finally spills out, Dorian proves he's far less fragile than Cullen feared, and far more willing to help him piece himself back together.

    A DA Kinkmeme fill.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,215
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    2
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    60
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    451
  15. Tags
    Summary

    Teon Wystan is invited to a Fresher’s week party by his old childhood friend, Ewan Trevelyan. Drunk shenanigans ensue and he wakes up in bed with a complete stranger. Worse, the stranger is in fact a Templar. Even worse than that, he’s hot.

    Modern Thedas AU

    (Smut marked with *)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    36,800
    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    15
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    476
  16. Tags
    Summary

    Things were different in the weeks following the fall of Haven. Sure, the Inquisitor still worked hard for her people. Helping far more than should be physically possible. But Cullen could see the tinge of sadness in her eyes. The way her smile was dimmed. And how any time she found herself alone with him, she quickly turned and ran the other way.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    917
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    20
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    195
  17. Tags
    Summary

    After having a car accident, Imogen Wrenfield wakes up in a world that isn't quite her own. Without being able to speak the language and faced with magic and other dangers she has no idea how to deal with, she tries her best to navigate this strange place and find her way home.

    But things don't always go according to plan, and soon Imogen finds herself caught in the middle of a brewing war.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    476,442
    Chapters:
    55/55
    Comments:
    335
    Kudos:
    321
    Bookmarks:
    85
    Hits:
    15,940
  18. Tags
    Summary

    Dorian lived a simple life before, where his father was a good man and he'd never be subject to unfair circumstances. Running away to the Inquisition meant dealing with ugly reality and a particularly handsome man. In this case, at the same time.

    The Inquisitor rendered Livius Erimond Tranquil. The mages were outraged. Cullen wanted a veteran Templar and mage to diffuse the tension, and he wanted Dorian to be the mage.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,686
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    17
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    123
  19. Tags
    Summary

    There was never a way of knowing before her how his body could feel under the touch of another. She is a balm to a wound he wasn’t aware he had, a solve to the loneliness he knew but had not worried gaped within him. The Inquisitor is just a woman, but it is a miracle that he hasn’t crumbled under the rapturous weight of her touch.

    Cullen is terrified of it most days. This thing that they have created is stronger than anything he has ever felt, and also so fragile that he is convinced that one day he will blunder into it and it will shatter. Like he has just now.

    (or, in which cullen can almost let himself feel pleasure, except for all the times he can't)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    19,261
    Chapters:
    2/3
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    23
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    352
  20. Tags
    Summary

    We all know the story; the war, the breach, the Inquisition. Now told from the perspective of the Inquisitor, the Commander and Corypheus.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    16,556
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Kudos:
    21
    Bookmarks:
    8
    Hits:
    764

Filters

Filter results:
Submit

Include

?
Include Ratings
Include Warnings
Include Categories
Include Fandoms
Include Characters
Include Relationships
Include Additional Tags

Exclude

?
Exclude Ratings
Exclude Warnings
Exclude Categories
Exclude Fandoms
Exclude Characters
Exclude Relationships
Exclude Additional Tags

More Options

Crossovers
Completion Status
Word Count
Date Updated
Submit

Clear Filters

Navigation