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  1. Public Bookmark 40

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    Workstations at Spudsy's are divided up slightly differently than originally planned, and Jax gets both eyes splattered with the local specialty bimbo sauce. As it turns out, Jax is extremely blabby when intoxicated.

    This is both a problem and a solution, depending on how you look at it. But you can't put the genie back in the bottle.

    (on desperately clinging to the heavily fractured shell of your bad boy street cred, emotional minefields, divination through playlist shuffles, gradually escalating homosexual events, and the terrifying possibility that things in your life can get better.)

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    12 Oct 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 19

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    Jax gets sick at the same time every year. Pomni finds out why.

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    27 Sep 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 21

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    Jax, after they all escaped the circus, had abandoned the group after they were released from the hospital with nothing but Kinger’s number and name on a paper. Two months into the other side of the group living together and healing in a house of their own, they get a call that a ‘John doe’ was found with Kinger’s number in his pockets, having attempted suicide.

    A hurt/comfort fic told somewhat non-linearly <3

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    22 Sep 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 34

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    “Is there a reason you’re so evasive?”

    Jax doesn't answer right away. His eyes shift somewhere over her shoulder, attention lingering in the empty air at Pomni's back. She watches the tension creep into the edges of his expression, a hairline crack forming in his usual bravado.

    Then his gaze snaps to hers again, and Jax's grin returns full force, eyes squinting with the stretch of it.

    “There you go again,” Jax says, clicking his tongue with the disapproval of a teacher delivering a bad grade. “Asking questions you don’t want the answers to.”

    Things come easily to Jax. He breezes his way through adventures, dodges every disaster, and always seems to be in the right place at the right time to instigate maximum chaos. While the rest of the cast struggles to keep themselves together in the face of constant upheaval, Jax navigates the digital world like he was born for it.

    But there's something not quite right with the Circus's resident troublemaker. Something Jax is desperate to keep hidden.

    Unfortunately for him, Pomni has been paying attention.

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    27 Aug 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 46

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    Pomni stood rigid, catatonic, when, upon opening the door, the ungainly figure of someone she had not expected to see for a long time was revealed—much less at her house, at her door.

    Felix (whom she knew as Jax, a name now too distant for her) was shivering. His shoulders slumped, seeming to carry more weight than someone so young should have to bear; his eyes were downcast, empty, lacking the sparkle that was so characteristic of him—and the same sparkle that he had preserved even in the circus. His face, covered in blood flowing from open wounds (only visible on his face, but she knew there were more), showed fear, a vulnerability she had never seen in him before.

    Felix trembled before falling onto her chest. She shouted his name, but he didn't register it enough to respond.

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    23 Aug 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 60

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    ~updated summary~
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    It didn't matter what Pomni thought. He was a terrible person. There might have been a time when he could've been justified in expecting people to respect him, but it ended that day, and he kept digging the hole deeper. Ribbit made that mistake, thinking he wasn't forever tainted, that his existence wasn't a cosmic punishment for who he was, and he killed them for it.

    He couldn't ask for that kind of forgiveness. He could not accept it even if it was given.
    ________________________

    After abstracting, Jax is presented with another chance at the Circus when she is reset to the day she entered. Will this time be different? Can the rest of the crew succeed in convincing her not to be such an ass? Will everyone fall in love? Find out in this whacky, deeply depressing, deeply repressing, beautiful tale of woe, misery, and maybe a little bit of joy!

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    22 Aug 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 8

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    "Even if its the 'homeless pity', he'll take it in exchange for her warm shower water, comfortable bed, being coated in the smell of her, marks he could look at when she was gone —
    He should put on his shoes.

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    When Lee got too her apartment he kicked off those shoes with a sigh it felt like he'd been holding in for far too long.

    Her apartment was clean, well organized, and smelt like her— plus some fresh smelling cleaners.

    He figured it'd be a good idea too smell less like the stray dog he was before she got home, and hopped into the shower."

    This is an AU out of the circus, where they are aware of the circus!

    Any kudos or comments are very appreciated!! This is something ive been working on alongside my last work ^^

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    21 Aug 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 23

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    After receiving a life-altering phone call, Leeroy Mateo finds himself at the lowest point of his life. At his weakest, he vanishes to the one place no one would think to find him. He equips a familiar headset, unknowingly copying his brain into a prison of his own making. Realizing there's no hope for escape, he accepts his fate- albeit, very slowly. But something isn't right...

    He knows he's a fuck up but there's more beneath the surface. Something his circus members are hiding from him.

    When the actions of his circus mates push him to his breaking point, he welcomes death with open arms.
    Will the circus be able to save him in time? Will anyone ever explain to him what's going on?

    Will he ever find happiness in this hell?

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    14 Aug 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 8

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    After the events of Episode seven, Jax grapples with memories from the life he's lost. A car, a forest road, and a friend. Identities clash as the circus comes to realize that Caine knows far more than he lets on.

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    09 Aug 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 35

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    Ribbit began to undo her bowtie. In full honesty, she still had no idea how Ribbit managed to get it to stay on. From what she's observed, it almost looks like it's floating all the time. But she knew there was no use in overthinking the physics of a digital world. She wiped her final tear.

    Which was why Jax didn't previously notice Ribbit reaching out to secure her bow around her left ear.

    ~~~~~

    Aka: A fic dedicated to what could've been if Kaufmo hadn't decided to sell girl scout cookies 💔 (let it be known that I am absolutely not blaming Kaufmo. Jax is an asshole, but she doesn't have any one big mistake to double down on right now.)

    WARNING: EPISODE 9 SPOILERS

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    06 Aug 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 24

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    LEGACY VERSION: This is the original version of I Don't Wanna Die and is no longer the continuing version of the story. A partially rewritten version is now available, with Chapters 1–7 largely preserved and a new continuity beginning with Chapter 8. Read the current version here.

    This version will remain available for anyone who wants to read the original storyline.


    Original Summary:

    This version will remain available for anyone who wants to read the original storyline.

    Set after Episode 6, Jax finds himself on borrowed time as he begins to slowly abstract.
    Facing oblivion, he must conceal his condition from Caine or risk spending eternity forgotten in the cellar.

    But hiding the truth becomes harder as the other circus members slowly begin to see through the walls he's spent years building around himself.

    Haunted by the ghosts of his past and terrified of letting anyone get too close, Jax has to decide whether surviving is something he can do alone.

    Will a drowning rabbit take the hand offered to him?

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    01 Aug 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 17

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    Three years after the events of 'Hello and Goodbye,' Ragatha must return home to pay her final respects and organize her mother's funeral. However, despite Ragatha's best efforts, she cannot help but dwell upon all that has transpired and wonders where she went wrong.

    As for Jax, while he attempts to move on, the demons of his past are impossible for him to every truly forget. And somewhere along the line, both Ragatha and Jax realize that perhaps, they both have more in common than either would have ever realized.

    Note: This fic was previously titled, "Grace Is Just Weakness, Or So I've Been Told."

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    22 Jul 2026

  13. Public Bookmark *

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    "Jax?" Pomni asks, eyes wide in alarm. She sounds like someone would when talking to a cornered animal, and it doesn't make her feel any better about the situation.

    "I- I don't—" her voice crackles like static. One of her hands remain on the side of her face, and then she moves to cover her eyes, trembling. "I don't know what's- what's happening—"

    Pomni's quiet for a moment. "What do you remember?"

    "I don't know—"

    She cuts herself off with a disbelieving laugh. She doesn't know. It's all so overwhelming she can't piece it together. The name Pomni's using for her doesn't feel real, even though there's a part of her saying that it is. Nothing feels real.

    How did she end up here? What happened? What year is it? Wasn't she on the street? Didn't she come here because—

    "I don't know," she cries, louder. "I don't know who I am! I don't know!"

    (or: two months after her abstraction, jax reawakens, and she isn't the same.)

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    20 Jul 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 84

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    After months of Jax's abstraction, things seem to go well. Until it doesn't. Pomni abstracts too but instead of dying, she founds herself trying to remember and come back before it's too late . Takes place after ep9

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    16 Jul 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 68

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    Struggling with the grief of Jax's abstraction, some helpful advise leads Pomni to keep hope alive and not let the grief consume her. After 2 years of waiting, an opportunity arrives and Pomni once again dives into Jax's mind.

    Perhaps abstraction can't be undone, it's effects may be permanent, but it doesn't have to be the end. Perhaps the key to un-abstraction isn't to move back, but forward and rediscover one's true self.

    After 2 years of finding herself, witness the journey of healing a reborn Jax must take as she wrestles with the weight of her past actions, builds a healthy support group, and finds new meaning in a stagnant life.

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    14 Jul 2026

  16. Public Bookmark *

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    What if, after everything that happens, Abstraction actually is reversible?

     

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    A fluffy yet angsty funnybunny fic where Jax comes back from abstraction!

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    30 Jun 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 12

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    De-abstraction doesn't feel like waking up. Jax would know. He's the only one who's ever done it.

    At least after being pulled apart from the inside, he tells himself there's nothing left for him to ruin.

    Then the circus' last member arrives.

     

    "It doesn't get better. But you stop checking for the door eventually. That part stops."

    "That supposed to help?"

    "No," Jax says, and means it. "Nothing helps. You just stop checking."

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    28 Jun 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 23

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    Caine decided to try to make his players happy one at a time, and he decides to start with his boisterous brazen bunny, despite Jax's objections.

    First fluff! (o=o... I swear this is fluff, I'm just an angst writer and the voices won.)

    Whoa! Second chapter picks up I swear. :D
    Loosely based off Glhf by Mico.

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    26 Jun 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 19

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    Jax looked away, chin on the pastel-pink pillow that was still hugged to his chest, "Don't act like you understand."

    No one dared to understand him, and why would they? Who cared for a sorry excuse of a paradox like him? Starved of being understood, but pushed away every chance of being honest. The idea was unfamiliar, alien even. Heck, he didn't understand himself; who knows what was wrong with him? He was simply like that. Cruel, unsociable, not even human, maybe. It was just who he was.

    Kinger just sat there, unfazed. He watched, careful, calculating. Handling this moment with a scary amount of delicacy.

    "Then make me."

    Jax's gaze snapped back to him, "What?"

    Kinger gazed into the void of Jax's eyes. Patient, waiting, perhaps even unconditional.

    "Make me understand."

    -

    Or me because there isn't enough Jax+Kinger fics

    TWs in tags.

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    17 Jun 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 90

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    ××A Post Episode 9 Post-Canon Fic××

     

    Pomni has been grieving for the past few months, having almost abstracted with Jax. She now has to deal with the grief of losing him while he is back, in front of her, and none the wiser about how much she knows about him and about how he saw them.

    The remaining members try to navigate life with the prospect that they are now here forever, creating barriers between themselves and their outside personalities. Caine tries to figure out how far he can push his new ability of 'raising the dead', still reeling from losing the powers Abel had provided and attempting to quell his own ego while catering to the members as promised.

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    Jax is de-abstracted and tries to be better (after a while).

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    11 Jun 2026

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