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    “I want our family,” Ilya said. “I want children. Permanence, I think is the word... A life with you. More than anything.”

    Shane felt his throat tighten. “I want that too.”

    Ilya nodded, eyes swelling. “I know. That is why I need to say everything now. Before I lose the nerve.”

    He took Shane’s hands, grounding himself. “I am trying to be strong for you. But I need you to be strong for me too.”

    “I am,” Shane said immediately, almost offended.

    “I know,” Ilya said. “But I need you to listen.”

    Shane nodded. “I am listening.”

    “I do not want to play hockey much longer,” Ilya said quietly. “Maybe couple more seasons. And then I am done.”

    Shane stared at him. “Done?”

    “Yes.”

    “With hockey. You’re serious?”

    “Very,” Ilya said.

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    Set one year after The Long Game, this story follows the fallout of a commissioner who refuses to loosen his grip, and the players who finally refuse to bend.

    Shane and Ilya are done playing by the rules of others. They're ready for a life, a family, each other and determining what their legacy really is. They're ready to play for keeps.

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    15 May 2026

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    After Shane walks out post-tuna melt, Ilya Rozanov walks through hell to remind himself who he is, a man ready to salt the fucking Earth for his people.

    Shane’s not even pretending he’s capable of being rational about it, he isn’t, his world is falling apart at the seams and he’s fairly sure he’s losing his mind.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

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    Chapters:
    21/21
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    30 Mar 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have won Cups. They've won trophies. They've done so much together as individuals, and as a couple.

    But they're about to take on their biggest challenge to date: parenthood.

    The difficult process of becoming parents, decisions about the future.

    And retirement.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Now that they've locked it down, they're learning just how low everyone's opinions are of their respective husband. They've got to face loving each other and healing when there's no one else to turn to.

    AKA, Ilya stop throwing punches every time someone insults your husband. Shane stop trying to blow people up with your mind.

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    Chapters:
    22/22
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    26 Mar 2026

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    24 Mar 2026

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    The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
    "Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.

    Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
    It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.

    Timeline goes back and forth.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
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    22 Mar 2026

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Ilya hesitated, staring at the number. He was captain of Hollander’s new team. It would have been completely normal, if not expected, that he would reach out to him soon. But his hand had turned to lead, his finger hovering over the “Call” button. What would he even say?

    “Hey Hollander. Sorry your team dumped you out of nowhere after building them a dynasty and you’re being shipped back to your hometown to play on an historically shitty team, captained by me, the guy who you’ve been pitted against your whole career and built up a decade’s worth of resentment towards, not to mention the fact that we sucked each other’s dicks that one time years ago and then pretended that it never happened. Haha, yeah, good times. Anyways. See you at practice.”

    —————

    In June 2010, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov hook up for the first and last time.

    In July 2021, Shane Hollander is abruptly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    “Can I come in?” Iyla asked.
    “Why?” Shane asked.
    Ilya took a deep breath. This anger didn't come from their rivalry. Something had happened. He needed to figure out what it was and how to fix it. The information he needed only lived inside the man in front of him. The man in front of him didn't want to give him any information. How would he get it?
    “Don’t we ever spend time together off the ice?” Ilya asked, a little suggestively.
    “Not anymore, Rozanov,” Shane said.
    “How long?” Ilya asked.
    “What?”
    “How long has it been since we were last together?” Ilya asked.
    “Five years,” Shane said.

    A funhouse mirror multiverse story where our Ilya wakes up alone in his old Boston penthouse and the other Ilya wakes up in a world where he is married to our Shane. Now with a little epilogue!

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    19 Mar 2026

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    Stuck in an alt-world where he and Shane never hooked up as teenagers, Ilya is determined to get Shane back. To do that, Ilya has to figure out a way to get Shane to see him as anyone other than the Russian asshole who has spent a decade pissing him off. It can't be that hard to make your husband fall in love with you... right?

    Basically: Shane Hollander makes a wish with good intentions. Ilya Rozanov wakes up confused, single, closeted, and miserable in Boston.

    +Bonus Chapter where AltWorld!Ilya wakes up confused, married, out, and carefree in Ottawa

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    19 Mar 2026

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    Ilya didn’t realise until he heard Yuna’s tired voice on the other end of the line that it was the middle of the night and he was crying. He was hysterical.

    “Ilya?” He felt terrible for waking her up. “Ilya, honey, is everything okay?”

    “Yuna,” Ilya’s voice was fucking trembling. “Is he okay? I need to talk to him. I need to know he is okay. Is he breathing?”

    “Ilya, slow down,” Yuna was just trying to help, but it wasn’t enough. Ilya needed to speak to Shane, to hear his voice, to hear his own, unaided breathing for himself. “What’s the matter?”

    “I just need him,” Ilya whimpered, creating a tight fist with his fingers. “I should have never let him go.”

     

    OR, where ilya is in boston and shane is in montreal, but all ilya needs to stay sane is to be by shane’s side as his recovery continues.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    “Alcohol is a blood thinner, you realize. You shouldn’t be giving him that.”

    “Well, we just cut his fuckin leg off, so we figured he deserved a little treat,” Marlow snapped.

    Ilya blinked. He stared down at his leg. Wrapped in a torn jersey and tied off with a belt. Also, it ended just past his knee.

    //

    or: The Boston Raiders plane goes down sometime in November, 2016

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    Comments:
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    15 Mar 2026

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    —

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    Chapters:
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    Collections:
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    1,827
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    14 Mar 2026

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    Cliff: You want me too break your nose?! (Ilya is on a sex ban and would do anything to get out of it. Anything.)

    Yuna: She can't stop herself from peaking, to make sure Ilya can calm Shane down - she see's something else. (Shane has a meltdown and Ilya calms him down through the power of a biting kink)

    Scott/Kip: What do you mean i remind you of your brother? What do you mean you don't know your a bottom? (Ilya and Scott finally talk and become friends. Shane and Kip are talking about sex. Kip introduces the concept of BDSM. Kip has regrets.)

    Hayden: First he fails at convincing Shane to become his third, then walks in on him getting his back blown out, then Shane gets kidnapped. Oh no.

    Svetlana: Plane crash rewrite - somehow this leads to Svetlana following Shane up a mountain in hopeless rescue attempt

    Ilya: My dick too big and my bitch too hot (Shane is in SubSpace then the hotel fire alarm goes off, the team finds out something new)

    Luca: what’s a BDSM relationship? (Luca sees some stuff that sets of an internal alarm)

    Harris and Troy: Recording shit they shouldn’t

    Or a collection of one shots of people clocking how unhinged Ilya and Shane are for each.

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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
    2,313
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    17,653
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    5,031
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    398,231

    13 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov fell in love in 2008. Just because their love story has to remain behind closed doors, doesn't mean they have to pretend it's not happening.

    a fix-it from the beginning, where they actually get their cute romance.

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    14
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    4,693

    12 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is in Russia when the FanMail video leaks. Fucking Brad.

    Featuring
    Shane and Hayden bestieism
    A Russian lesbian, her nb partner and the worlds worst European roadtrip in a shitty car
    Svetlana being the friend we all deserve

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    2
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    332

    09 Mar 2026

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    Ilya asked Shane’s father while Shane and his mother were talking outside: “Is boyfriends correct? Lovers is incorrect, but I am not sure what is correct.”

    “Well,” Mr. Hollander said. “‘Lovers’ is usually used for, hm, a mistress or an affair. Something kind of sordid. Though--you would say Romeo and Juliet is a play about two lovers,” he said. He paused his knife on the chopping board. “Somehow that’s right and using it for real people isn’t right. English is a damn funny language, Ilya."

    “Yes,” Ilya said from the bottom of his heart.

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    Chapters:
    24/24
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    1,516
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    4,882
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    1,813
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    117,751

    09 Mar 2026

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    “What happened?” Ilya asked, stepping closer, brows pulling together.

    Shane looked up, still processing, eyes wide in a way Ilya had never seen before.

    “I’ve been traded,” he said, the words landing heavy between them. “It’s done.”

    ___________

    OR: Shane loses his phone at the 2017 All-stars game in Tampa and months later explicit videos are leaked and Shane’s life is flipped upside down. He and Ilya must confront their feelings for each other and Shane decides that maybe he’d be happier on a different team ;)

    Language:
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    64,156
    Chapters:
    19/?
    Comments:
    669
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    4,729
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    1,892
    Hits:
    116,114

    09 Mar 2026

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    English
    Words:
    178,500
    Chapters:
    42/42
    Collections:
    43
    Comments:
    20,255
    Kudos:
    20,027
    Bookmarks:
    6,774
    Hits:
    795,851

    09 Mar 2026

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