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    A teenage Ilya arrives at an elite six-month development programme already planning to kill himself.

    Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.

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    21 Sep 2026

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    Ilya doesn't remember the moment his head hit the pavement or the sound of screeching brakes.

    He's forgotten he ever left Russia, and the names Yuna Hollander and Shane mean nothing to him, though these people clearly know him pretty well.

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    21 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    21 Sep 2026

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    Luca realized, being in a nearly invisible spot to them, and the only one on the team currently without earplugs shoved in his ears, he had been given a very rare gift. One that he had secretly always wanted: to observe Shane and Ilya in their natural husband habitat. He was like a wildlife photographer in the bushes watching the most beautiful mated herons. Or would they be lions? Wolves? Would Shane be a snow leopard, and Ilya a bear, or - Oh god, imagine Ilya as a bear - No, Luca, focus. There's a loving exchange going on.

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    or; during a quick team sleepover on the floor of a delta lounge, luca haas ethically eavesdrops on the unabashed love between shane and ilya.

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    15 Sep 2026

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    The man doesn’t look phased. On the contrary, he’s acting like it’s completely normal to talk about sex with a stranger.

    “Well, my wife wants me to…” David hesitates, but what damage could it do? Tomorrow, he’ll be on a plane back to Ottawa and he’ll never see this man again. “She wants me to try being more dominant.”

    The Russian grins. “Oh, you have met the right person.”

    Or: In 2014, David and Ilya become friends and start swapping sex advice. It's too bad they don't recognize each other.

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    12 Sep 2026

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  6. Rec *

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    A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.

    Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.

    Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    The mating run was an event Shane dreaded every year, and when he’s finally forced to participate he decides to simply find somewhere to ride it out, alone. What he doesn’t bank on however, is Ilya Rozanov. And this year the alpha is determined to finally claim what is his.

    After so long being the hunter, Shane is now the hunted - he just doesn’t quite know it yet.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    Shane calls a phone sex hotline and gets Ilya crooning unspeakable filth in his ear. It kind of devolves from there.

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    Ilya is a college student in Boston working on the side as a phone sex operator, Shane is still a hockey player. They have toe-curling, dirty phone sex and end up falling in love along the way.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    07 Sep 2026

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  10. Public Bookmark 8

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    02 Sep 2026

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    Nobody moves for a moment as Shane stares the woman down, and he’s seconds away from sawing the damn thing off himself, when the woman nods to the men surrounding the hybrid. And then there’s a flurry of movement, a clicking sound and then the men stand back to reveal Ilya in his bare faced glory, unobstructed by the muzzle.

    Shane takes him in, inhaling softly at the sharp cheekbones, the moles dusted over his face, the pillowy lips that are set in a firm, displeased line. Shane wonders how big his fangs are. If he was a fighter, they must have been sharpened regularly.

    Shane doesn’t want to think about the damage this wall of a hybrid had inflicted on others, the damage he could inflict on Shane. The hybrid stares at him, expression hard to determine but the intensity of it has Shane holding back a shiver. He’s staring at Shane like he can see every thought inside of him, calculating. As if they were on opposing sides of a ring, ready for the bell to chime and for Ilya to go in for the kill.

    Shane gets roped into fostering a troublesome hybrid with a bad track record. Except what begins as a cordial arrangement turns into something much more complicated.

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    02 Sep 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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    31 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander was boring. Or at least that is what his ex-boyfriend told him when he unceremoniously dumped him. Now, six months after the last time he spoke to Johnathon, he was finally beginning to feel alright. He had a good job, a good side-hustle, good friends and (most importantly) good health. He didn't have to deal with Johnathon's mess left lying around his house, nor did he have to put up with his boyfriend's creepy preoccupation with another man.

    So when he agreed to privately teach yoga to a famous client, he definitely didn't expect it to be his ex-boyfriend's parasocial obsession. He may resent Ilya Rozanov, but he's a professional who can keep it together. It's only a few months. He'll make it out of this alive. Definitely. Probably.

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    25 Aug 2026

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  14. Public Bookmark 7

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    谢恩·霍兰德坚信爱产生欲望,直到有一天,在一个不是很严格的赌约下,他鬼使神差答应了男朋友伊萨克参加与另一对情侣的四人行,从此对爱与欲望之间的关系产生困惑,并在寻找答案的过程中感觉到痛苦与狂喜交加的状态。一天,他回头看到了一个默默陪在他身后的人。

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    20 Aug 2026

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    “This hot tub has not been well maintained,” Rozanov complained as they stood on the deck, staring at the built-in hot tub, big enough to fit 8 people. 

    “So, you can replace it,” Shane replied patiently.

    “I will be too busy to replace the hot tub. Then I will have a long day, and I will decide to have a soak in my rancid hot tub, and then I will catch diphtheria and die.” Rozanov looked at Shane, accusatory. “You want me to die?”

    Shane looked down. The hot tub looked no more or less rancid than any other hot tub. “I don’t think you can get diphtheria from a dirty hot tub.”

    “You are doctor now?” Rozanov asked, and Shane stayed silent. 

    Shane Hollander is a realtor who works with the Ottawa Centaurs to find properties for new players.

    Ilya Rozanov needs a home.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Daddy and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is a wonder, and the scoreboard reflects it. Poor Joe doesn’t even make it to the podium, but Ilya does. Shane watches him beaming, he relishes in the music and the applause, carefree and open and young.

    There’s the rub. The kid is barely twenty-four, an infant compared to Shane’s thirty-two. Even if Shane might not look it, he feels it— shame, like he should be averting his gaze, like the heat in his belly when their eyes connect is entirely inappropriate and needs to stop.

    Shane sticks around at the rink after the program finishes.

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    It's the 2026 Milan-Cortina Winter Olympics. Shane Hollander is the closeted golden boy captain of the Canadian National Men's Hockey team and Ilya Rozanov is a boisterous figure skating phenom. When their paths unexpectedly cross, sparks fly, and they're quickly carried away into a whirlwind romance with an expiration date. It also doesn't help that Ilya is eight years his junior.

    Love comes at inopportune moments, and maybe only once every four years, unless you're brave enough to play for keeps.

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as a relay-only swimmer who only swam the prelims.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    14 Aug 2026

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    After the cottage, Shane panic-googles how to be a good boyfriend and follows every step.

    Ilya becomes increasingly convinced Shane is about to break up with him.

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    10 Aug 2026

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    Shane: Hi. This is Shane Hollander.
    Lily: ???
    Shane: From the bar? You left me your number.
    Shane: This is Lily right?
    Lily: Sure.
    Lily: Hello Shane.
    Shane: Hi.

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    09 Aug 2026

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