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(hopelessly) waiting for your love by attfna
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 May 2026
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When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.
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Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.
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- 63,617
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26 Jun 2026
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Shane and Ilya haven’t spoken to each other since they broke up over a misunderstanding at the 2017 All-Stars game. Ilya was traded from Boston to LA and they both tried to move on. But, in December of 2019, when Ilya ends up on injury reserve, he decides to make an unannounced trip to Montreal. He could have never foreseen the global pandemic just around the corner of that decision, and as the world crumbles around them, they find themselves isolated at the cottage for the longest offseason of their lives.
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What happens when the systems you have carefully built to keep yourself hidden and emotionally regulated are no longer available to you? What happens when the identity you built your life around becomes the thing you must let go of? What happens when isolation exposes the truth about yourself and everyone around you and there’s nowhere else to hide? What does Shane do then? What does Ilya do then? What ripples does that create beyond their relationship? What shape does their life become when honesty is no longer optional?
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- English
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- 219,696
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- 67/?
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18 Jun 2026
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In Another Life (It's You, It Will Always Be You) by Amee19
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Jun 2026
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The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.
They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.
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- English
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- 148,526
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- 28/?
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07 Jun 2026
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Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Jun 2026
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2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.
2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.
When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.
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“So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”
“We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”
“No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”
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- Part 6 of Heated Rivalry
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- English
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- 316,782
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- 19/?
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06 Jun 2026
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Public Displays of Affection by Theoz_wolf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 May 2026
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"Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."
"Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.
"I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.
"For what?"
"It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."
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- English
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- 35/35
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13 May 2026
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Concussion Protocol by cjr2
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
02 Jan 2026
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Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.
In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.
But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.
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A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.
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- Part 1 of Return-to-Play
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- English
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- 49,003
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- 20/20
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08 Mar 2026
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contingency plans by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Feb 2026
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Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"
Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.
Not hurt. Alive.
“Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”
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or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.
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- Part 1 of all lights turned off can be turned on
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- English
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07 Mar 2026
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A memory loss fic where Shane gets hit hard in the head and wakes up in the hospital. He thinks he is 27, sneaking around with Ilya and still in the closet, only to learn that they are married.
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Tears spilled down his mother's cheeks. “No, honey, you’re not twenty seven. You're twenty nine. Almost thirty.”
Shane snorted. “That can’t—”
“It is, sweetheart. And Ilya is…”
She glanced at the door where two large shadows stood just beyond the frosted glass window. The shorter one embraced the much, much taller one.
Shane’s heart started beating frantically in his chest. His head pounded as he tried to take in what he was hearing, tried to process what the fuck his mother was saying to him.
“Ilya,” he squeaked. “Ilya is what?”
“Ilya is your husband.”
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- English
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- 95,810
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- 26/26
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01 Feb 2026
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Shane loves his mother and his team but sometimes those photoshoots and commercials can be overwhelming. The constant lights, the people in his face. The make-up artists, the stylists, his mother nit-picking at things. The director wanting retakes. He was tired. Overstimulated. A certain Russian hockey player makes things...better.
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27 Jan 2026
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After The Quiet Fight, the battle was supposed to be over.
Ilya survived cancer. He made it back to the NHL. He finished his first season back on the ice. From the outside, it looks like a victory.
But survival doesn’t mean peace.
This sequel picks up in the aftermath—when the adrenaline fades and the real cost begins to surface. Ilya is fighting a body that still hasn’t fully forgiven him. Shane is fighting a mind shaped by months of fear, hospitals, and the constant threat of loss. And together, they’re fighting each other—trying to love, plan a future, and breathe again while remission looms quietly in the background.
This is a story about what comes after the battle, when Shane and Ilya are learning how to live when they are no longer in crisis—but not free from it either. A story about the tension between gratitude and grief, strength and fragility, love and resentment.
The fight feels louder than ever.
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- Part 2 of The Quiet Fight
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- English
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- 56,228
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- 19/19
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25 Jan 2026
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A Hockey Secret by I_write_things_sometimes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Feb 2026
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Shane leans into him. “Can I tell you a secret?” Shane wobbles as he asks and catches himself by winding an arm around Ilya’s waist.
“Of course.” Trust is the foundation of their relationship. They’ve always kept each other’s secrets. They just have far fewer of them now. “Is what husbands are for, I think.”
“This is a hockey secret,” Shane says, nonsensically.
A hockey secret?
“Maybe you did not hear,” Ilya says it like he’s sharing a secret of his own, “but I just won the Stanley Cup without any top secret Hollander hockey moves.”
Shane smacks his shoulder and leaves his hand on Ilya’s chest. “We did that to-geth-er.” The words come out of Shane’s mouth strangely musically.
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20 Jan 2026
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Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.
Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.
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- English
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- 10,607
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- 1/1
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- 720
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16 Jan 2026
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Hold On (I Still Want You) by velminort
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jan 2026
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Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.
Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."
And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.
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They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.
“Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”
He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.
Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.
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- Part 1 of Hold On (I Still Want You)
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- 20,239
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16 Jan 2026
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Brains are dumb. For supposedly being the 'smart' organ they seem to hurt an awful lot. (Literally and figuratively)
This is something both Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are both frustratingly too familiar with, but admitting it to each other? Almost worse.
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Shane has been suffering with his migraines for years.
Ilya has been pushing through depression for years.
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15 Jan 2026
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When Shane Hollander suffers a career-threatening injury, the game that has defined him and given him language to understand himself is taken away. Ilya becomes his anchor, witnessing the slow, fragile unraveling of identity and the painstaking, reversible work of rebuilding.
Who is Shane Hollander without hockey?
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14 Jan 2026
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Basically: Ilya gets concussed and the hospital calls Shane (who didn’t know that Ilya had put him down as his emergency contact) and who immediately races to Boston.
(This is set during the hockey season after the last episode. They have come out to Shane’s parents and are ‘officially’ boyfriends, but Shane still plays for the Metros and Ilya still plays for Boston.)
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- 2/2
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14 Jan 2026
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That's All It Takes by kingskindly
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jan 2026
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Based very loosely on events from The Long Game that my brain wanted to put into the first book, somewhere between Shane’s injury, and before Scott Hunter wins the cup - for maximum angst, obviously.
What if Ilya’s plane had actually crashed? And what if it had happened before he and Shane had the chance to confess their love and know what it was like to be together.
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A fic so I could write a really needy Shane who can't hide his feelings anymore, and an Ilya who is faced with the undeniable truth that someone cares for him.
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- English
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- 49,312
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- 20/20
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- 592
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11 Jan 2026
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Tunnel Vision (My sweet Ilya) by 20finch876
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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Play was called and medics from Boston and Montreal rushed on. Shane could feel his heart beating out of his chest.
Get up Ilya, come on baby, get up.
He was stood waiting, trying so desperately to just seem like a concerned opposing player. When in reality Shane felt like his heart was being ripped in two. He had just about convinced himself to sit down, that Ilya would be back up with his cocky smirk in no time; then he saw the blood splattered on the ice.
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Ilya gets injured in a game against the Voyagers, and our poor anxious baby Shane goes to pieces. Everything is exposed on the ice and nothing will ever be the same again.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 74,808
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- 13/13
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- 428
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10 Jan 2026
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clap when you land by quietafterdusk
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Apr 2026
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AU — The Centaurs’ plane crashes. No deaths are reported, and that should be a relief.
Ilya survives. He just isn’t waking up.
As Shane waits, the world continues on, and he’s forced to confront just how fragile their life truly is.
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- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 120,121
- Chapters:
- 30/30
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- 4,285
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09 Jan 2026
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Talk to anyone (I can't talk to you) by Taynado
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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Shane watches helplessly as Ilya is sent headfirst into the boards, spine twisting, skates lifting off the ice as his body folds under the force. The sound of impact is thunderous and wrong - echoing - louder than the crowd, louder than the goal horn, louder than the pounding of his heart against his chest, as Ilya’s body finally crumples into the ice.
Ilya had no time to brace, Shane knows he had no time to brace because Shane had no time to brace.
And he’s not moving.
“Ilya!”
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Or what it means to break, and come together again.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 46,291
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- 12/12
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- 362
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09 Jan 2026