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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    25 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 32

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    In the aftermath of Boston, of Tuna Melts and everything falling apart, Shane ends up with a kitten, a girlfriend, and a list of texts that never get sent.

    It all works out in the end. It just takes time.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    In the quiet morning after the storm, Shane and Ilya find their way back to each other. An epilogue of healing, intimacy, and coming home.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    23 Mar 2026

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    A collection of all my Heated Rivalry fic to make it easier to find. Please notice that I update the order a lot because I'm not always writing them chronologically!

    Originally, these stories weren't intended to fit together, but they (mostly) do, so now I consider this a sort of miniverse of its own. There may be a few minor inconsistencies here and there, but I generally try to make them work. You will encounter Megan Rapinoe. You will see the same OCs in multiple fics. You will get to journey with them from pre-series to beyond the events established in canon (as of Jan 2026 when Unrivaled has not yet been published).

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    22 Mar 2026

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    19 Mar 2026

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    In a hotel room in Tampa in 2017, Shane and Ilya make the mature decision. The safe one. The one that means they have to say goodbye.

    Neither one of them knows it’s something they can take back. If they want to.

    Because sometimes things have to fall apart to come together in the end.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    “What are you doing here?"

    He’s thankful his voice doesn’t shake, but he’s trembling. And he knows Ilya notices. Even all these years later, he’s sure he can still read Shane like a fucking book.

    Ilya’s smile softens and he points to the ice, where the player whose eyes had brought Shane back to Before lines up with the other boys.

    “My son."

    Ilya never goes to the cottage. Nearly two decades later, they meet again.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    Shane finally takes it upon himself to get Ilya to quit smoking. (completely and for real this time) Shane’s not the most convincing person on the planet, but he does know how to speak Ilya's language and that language involves his body. He just hopes he can be more addictive than cigarettes.

    “I had an idea, though. An idea you might like…you might also hate it.”

    Ilya cocked an eyebrow, “Okay?”

    “What if, if you really need a cigarette, instead, you use your favourite distraction?”

    Ilya scrunched up his face, “What is my favourite distraction?”

    “Me…I mean…I thought…right?” Shane instantly second-guessed himself and got embarrassed.

    Ilya had a beaming smile, “Yes, you are very good distraction, definitely my favourite.” Ilya brushed a hand against Shane’s cheek and gave him a quick peck on the lips.

    Shane beamed at the gesture, “So instead of smoking…if you’re craving a cigarette, instead you can do anything to me you want.”

    “Anything I want?” Ilya's eyes widened at the notion.

    “Anything you want, but if you fail and you do have a smoke…then you don’t get me at all.”

     
    Or: Shane uses sex to make Ilya quit smoking

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    15 Mar 2026

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    all fics i write for the heated rivalry universe will be linked into this one. some will be connected. some will definitely not be.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    Connor,” Hudson whispers, so quiet it almost never reaches his ears. “What are you so afraid of?”

    Or, the one where they met the year before the show.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    Finally, Ilya exhaled hard, shoulders slumping just slightly as he turned around. “I don’t like sharing you.”

    “I’m not shared,” Shane said softly. “You’re my boyfriend... he is my best friend.”

    Ilya turned back, eyes dark and possessive. “I see the way he looks at you. Because he looks at you the same way I look at you.”

    Shane’s mouth fell open, half grinning with amusement. Did Ilya really think Hayden was in love with him?

    “Ilya, Hayden has a wife and four kids, what are you talking abo-”

    “How could he not?!” Ilya cut him off. “You are perfect. Perfect son, perfect hockey player, perfect boyfriend, perfect friend!” He spits out, using air quotations to exaggerate the friend part.

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    OR: Ilya Rozanov is extremely jealous of Hayden Pike. Shane ends up in a situation needing help, and both Hayden and Ilya show up at the same time... chaos ensues as Hayden connects the dots.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    13 Mar 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    11 Mar 2026

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    There is a strong scent of antiseptic in the air, the kind that always haunts hospitals and morgues. Ilya thinks it is fitting. He thinks, perhaps, that some vital organ of his is failing irreparably, and he is only waiting for a doctor to call out his time of death.

    “You have lost your memories.” It’s not a question. Ilya’s burning hand drops from Shane’s cheek.

    “Yeah,” Shane says easily. “Wait, shit, did no one tell you?”

    “Is it temporary.” Ilya’s voice is hoarse, pleading. “This memory loss, is it… tell me that it is temporary.” Please, please, God. I know I promised to give anything up, but-

    Shane looks at Ilya with wide eyes. “They don’t know,” he says gently. He seems to be catching onto Ilya’s distress despite the drugs in his system.

    Ilya feels cold all over. Yes, any moment now, they will cover him with a white sheet and take him away.

    Shane's concussion in S01E05 leaves him missing his memories from the last decade. Ilya is now the only person in the world who knows the truth about him and Shane, and is forced to question whether to burden Shane with their complicated relationship or to walk away.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

    *****

    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    11 Mar 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 53

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    “Three weeks in a row, Ilya.” Shane comments, his own eyebrows raised, “The pans are put back, but always in the wrong place.”

    “Okay, I’m sorry,” Ilya says, fast. Shane turns back around.

    “This isn’t just about the pans,” Shane mutters, low and under his breath, but Ilya catches it.

    “Then what is this about?” Ilya asks, his voice competitive and harsh as he drops his phone to give Shane his attention, “Because you’ve been sighing, huffing, and turning your nose up for the past week, Shane. Is like you are tired of me.”

    Shane’s shoulders stiffen slightly.

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    What starts out as a small, insignificant argument leads to a revelation of emotions that have been building for months, and one comment goes too far.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap a his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Ilya likes the chase, and the chase loves him back. Talking shit at Hollander is a pastime he’d wait months to indulge in. Hollander’s more than happy to greet him head-on.

    The difference is that Hollander likes being caught too.

    or: Ilya seeks in Hollander a consolation prize. It takes ten years for him to obtain something more.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander always had a strategy. He had a strategy for winning the Cup, a strategy for managing the press, and a strategy for keeping his relationship with his rival-turned-boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov, strictly in the dark. He really was good at managing it all… Right up until the moment a medical impossibility turned into a positive pregnancy test, and the only man Shane ever loved asked him to do the one thing he couldn’t: tell the truth.

    Five years post-breakup, Shane is technically winning. He has the trophies, the privacy, and their brilliant daughter, Airi. And he is perfectly co-parenting with his ex, Ilya Rozanov. The rules are simple: minimal contact, polite text messages about their daughter, and absolutely no acknowledging about their past.

    Until Yuna Hollander decides to intervene. Suddenly, the ocean Shane put between them is gone. Shane’s new strategy is simple: survive seven days with Ilya without falling apart.

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    06 Mar 2026

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